09-17-2017, 08:39 AM
I'm a little nervous. I have an Adult Children of Alcoholics (ACA) meeting today in a couple of hours. I've been thinking of if, how, and why I'd share honestly. I was there Thursday, I led it (unplanned), and right at the end I tried spitting out how I'd not REALLY been doing much of any program work in a very long time.
As days have passed using UD, I've seen myself scraping away all the toxic, binding beliefs and feelings which I've held to tightly for years. I'm not seeing myself getting attention (it's not my thing)--I've seen (and felt) myself freeing myself. After yesterday with my old sponsor spitting out stuff freely, I can only imagine what'll come up today.
I've cried a few times today while alone. I expect to cry today with others. (why do we feel sad when our chains come off?) Just began crying when re-reading my post here.
As days have passed using UD, I've seen myself scraping away all the toxic, binding beliefs and feelings which I've held to tightly for years. I'm not seeing myself getting attention (it's not my thing)--I've seen (and felt) myself freeing myself. After yesterday with my old sponsor spitting out stuff freely, I can only imagine what'll come up today.
I've cried a few times today while alone. I expect to cry today with others. (why do we feel sad when our chains come off?) Just began crying when re-reading my post here.
I want to be FREE!
