Detox Ain't A Rental: myth on UD

[findingme]

the monsters are there only because I built them to be (like imaginary friends, only as enemies)

I relate to this, me using UD now myself. I'll be in a conversation, and a growing voice in me is saying "I DON'T believe that/THINK that...." and it's pleasantly uncomfortable. Like my truth is getting louder than my lies, and it's challenging me to be real, to be honest.

In truth, I secretly welcome it since my lies slowly and steadily hurt me, as I feel it both emotionally AND physically. Tightness in the gut or my throat are signs that...........I'm attempting to lie to myself again....and again.

UD is turning some tables on me. Even now, sitting here at home--all inside work is going on in me.

Thanks for sharing your experiences here. I'm checking your progress from time to time, for my benefit :-)