Guys, I'm feeling guilty. Maybe ultimate detox is working on something, so I'm writing to maybe hear back.
For over two months, I have been investing small amounts of money with Traders to multiply it. I have some money coming this Thursday, and due to that, I've been contacting different Traders to split money's among different Traders to spread out the risk.
Here's my problem. I feel like I'm in high school, dating three different girls simultaneously, attempting to keep each a secret from the others. I told a friend that I've been working with that I feel like I'm whoring around. I've contacted maybe six different Traders, asking them the same questions, leading them on to think that I had money in hand and wanted to trade with them. This only hit me tonight after one Trader, whom I do respect, seemed to blow me off when I asked about reinvesting. It's kind of strange, but he's the only one I've been truly honest with so far. And I was honest tonight, saying that I would didn't have money in hand yet. Okay, he's in a business, and does not want to waste his time. Am I personalizing this too much? Most likely. I've been on E2 for months due to feeling like a child in an adult body. I realized I saw this guy in an almost fatherly role.
If it makes any sense, this is different from E2, as I'm inclined to do something, to change something, to make a different choice. And this is new. Not exciting, but good. I'm owning my s***.
For over two months, I have been investing small amounts of money with Traders to multiply it. I have some money coming this Thursday, and due to that, I've been contacting different Traders to split money's among different Traders to spread out the risk.
Here's my problem. I feel like I'm in high school, dating three different girls simultaneously, attempting to keep each a secret from the others. I told a friend that I've been working with that I feel like I'm whoring around. I've contacted maybe six different Traders, asking them the same questions, leading them on to think that I had money in hand and wanted to trade with them. This only hit me tonight after one Trader, whom I do respect, seemed to blow me off when I asked about reinvesting. It's kind of strange, but he's the only one I've been truly honest with so far. And I was honest tonight, saying that I would didn't have money in hand yet. Okay, he's in a business, and does not want to waste his time. Am I personalizing this too much? Most likely. I've been on E2 for months due to feeling like a child in an adult body. I realized I saw this guy in an almost fatherly role.
If it makes any sense, this is different from E2, as I'm inclined to do something, to change something, to make a different choice. And this is new. Not exciting, but good. I'm owning my s***.
I want to be FREE!
