Few things to note. going to be brief because too tired to write long post.
1) Neighbors wife been giving me mad smiles lately, allot of people have lately. I think the aura is working powerfully now even though I haven't had any women approach me, I get mad smiles now all the time from allot of the women I encounter in my job. The neighbors wife was very obvious because in the past she wouldn't go out of her way to make sure we greet eachother when I came home from work today for example.
2) Day 2 of not smoking weed, I feel amazing, no urge to relapse, Feel smarter and my mind is working at a more elevated level. I feel smarter and more awake. IM STOKED ON QUITTING, I don't even want to blaze anymore, the switch in mind has been flipped.
3) Day 1 no fap, will not fap tonight or ever.
4) I spent the first 3 hours of my work today as a courier, thinking about approaching some chicks, I had allot of anxiety come up and it came to the point where it was ruining my day, so I decided FUCK It i'm not approaching anyone today and I'm going to just relax and stop letting this get to me TODAY.
once I decided that the anxiety went away, I need to find out why I have so much anxiety.
5) Started TAPPING and EFT today, Haven't done that in 3 years. 3 years ago I did EFT on the topic of my dog I had to give away after a yer as a kid, and I started bawling like crazy, that was 8 years after I gave away my dog. energy healing works.
6) I have a date for this sunday with a 9/10. compared to the 10/10 stripper shes a 8, but shes a solid 9 compared to regular women, nice body, nice butt, nice boobs. She's probably an 8.5. But nice women I knew from highschool, she's the one with the kid. The day is going to happen.
She had ignored me 3 weeks ago when I asked if she wanted to come to the strip club with me (I was doing this as a test to see if this type of text would work or not, because I didn't care about outcome)
turns out it didn't work, she ignored that text, then 2 1/2 weeks later, last night I messaged her asking if she wants to go for a mini road trip this weekend (to squamish).
She ignored me for few hours so i sent her this "Id love to see you again it's been too long,I wont be asking you again to hang out so let me know if your down to reconnect or not. Good night"
she replied today, "Yes i'm sorry I would like to hang out!! We can do something sunday but maybe something a bit closer if thats okay? just cuz aiden still naps and all that lol"
I said "yeah no worries, il talk to you closer to sunday and we'll plan something"
one thing I noticed is when I text a girl i completely forget about them after for the rest of the day if not the rest of the week. 2 years ago or 3 years ago if I sent a text id be checking my phone CONSTANTLY till it drove me insane. I WAS FUCKED in the head insecure.
now I just completely let them out of my thought process. IT DOESNT AFFECT ME AT ALL.
That's probably one of the most significant things i've noticed. I'm no longer obsessed and insecure in that way. I am way more relaxed and go with the flow. I also am so much less outcome dependant and also less excited and emotional about the date. It just doesns't seem like a big deal for me for some reason.
also i am much more funny lately i noticed, I have been making more jokes on Facebook and also in person with people. NOT all the time but I do notice I am more funny then usual.
LOL so much for not writing a long post.....
anyways good night everyone peace and love.
1) Neighbors wife been giving me mad smiles lately, allot of people have lately. I think the aura is working powerfully now even though I haven't had any women approach me, I get mad smiles now all the time from allot of the women I encounter in my job. The neighbors wife was very obvious because in the past she wouldn't go out of her way to make sure we greet eachother when I came home from work today for example.
2) Day 2 of not smoking weed, I feel amazing, no urge to relapse, Feel smarter and my mind is working at a more elevated level. I feel smarter and more awake. IM STOKED ON QUITTING, I don't even want to blaze anymore, the switch in mind has been flipped.
3) Day 1 no fap, will not fap tonight or ever.
4) I spent the first 3 hours of my work today as a courier, thinking about approaching some chicks, I had allot of anxiety come up and it came to the point where it was ruining my day, so I decided FUCK It i'm not approaching anyone today and I'm going to just relax and stop letting this get to me TODAY.
once I decided that the anxiety went away, I need to find out why I have so much anxiety.
5) Started TAPPING and EFT today, Haven't done that in 3 years. 3 years ago I did EFT on the topic of my dog I had to give away after a yer as a kid, and I started bawling like crazy, that was 8 years after I gave away my dog. energy healing works.
6) I have a date for this sunday with a 9/10. compared to the 10/10 stripper shes a 8, but shes a solid 9 compared to regular women, nice body, nice butt, nice boobs. She's probably an 8.5. But nice women I knew from highschool, she's the one with the kid. The day is going to happen.
She had ignored me 3 weeks ago when I asked if she wanted to come to the strip club with me (I was doing this as a test to see if this type of text would work or not, because I didn't care about outcome)
turns out it didn't work, she ignored that text, then 2 1/2 weeks later, last night I messaged her asking if she wants to go for a mini road trip this weekend (to squamish).
She ignored me for few hours so i sent her this "Id love to see you again it's been too long,I wont be asking you again to hang out so let me know if your down to reconnect or not. Good night"
she replied today, "Yes i'm sorry I would like to hang out!! We can do something sunday but maybe something a bit closer if thats okay? just cuz aiden still naps and all that lol"
I said "yeah no worries, il talk to you closer to sunday and we'll plan something"
one thing I noticed is when I text a girl i completely forget about them after for the rest of the day if not the rest of the week. 2 years ago or 3 years ago if I sent a text id be checking my phone CONSTANTLY till it drove me insane. I WAS FUCKED in the head insecure.
now I just completely let them out of my thought process. IT DOESNT AFFECT ME AT ALL.
That's probably one of the most significant things i've noticed. I'm no longer obsessed and insecure in that way. I am way more relaxed and go with the flow. I also am so much less outcome dependant and also less excited and emotional about the date. It just doesns't seem like a big deal for me for some reason.
also i am much more funny lately i noticed, I have been making more jokes on Facebook and also in person with people. NOT all the time but I do notice I am more funny then usual.
LOL so much for not writing a long post.....
anyways good night everyone peace and love.
