Been having some negative talk today but I still pushed myself to go out for a bit this evening. turns out I was only gone for 1.5 hours. I went out to a bar.. chilled then hung out at a smaller club/bar venu which was a change of scenery from the bigger clubs in town. Either way... I never felt the night.. like I never got into it.
Either way.. Im not in Savannah right now so I assume when I was with friends 2 weekends ago and talking to new girls I was feeding off of their good and familiar energy. I've been having trouble re igniting that charisma and motivation I saw in myself back in Savannah. It seems to have something to do with my resistance which has been a lot of negative thinking but I really feel like I do not believe I can be independent and do things myself to create the best life possible for me ( EDIT: in this moment
). Back in savannah I was hanging with friends and dancing in the clubs... back home where I am now I can just stand.. manage a couple of smirks and gazes and some women but mostly just negative self talk that keeps building like.. "everyone's looking at me and wondering why I'm not talking to anybody." again it's heavy resistance with the limiting thoughts but I didn't think this would come back so bad to where I can't believe in myself to push through stupid stuff and be comfortable with my surroundings and just all around be a friendly guy. I think it's a good choice to do disconnect with negativity for now I cannot wait to start it. Also I will run OAA with it.. for hopefully a good solid 2 months with little to no gaps in between. Then on to alpha male. I'm ready for more boosts of motivation, focus, and optimism.
Either way.. Im not in Savannah right now so I assume when I was with friends 2 weekends ago and talking to new girls I was feeding off of their good and familiar energy. I've been having trouble re igniting that charisma and motivation I saw in myself back in Savannah. It seems to have something to do with my resistance which has been a lot of negative thinking but I really feel like I do not believe I can be independent and do things myself to create the best life possible for me ( EDIT: in this moment
). Back in savannah I was hanging with friends and dancing in the clubs... back home where I am now I can just stand.. manage a couple of smirks and gazes and some women but mostly just negative self talk that keeps building like.. "everyone's looking at me and wondering why I'm not talking to anybody." again it's heavy resistance with the limiting thoughts but I didn't think this would come back so bad to where I can't believe in myself to push through stupid stuff and be comfortable with my surroundings and just all around be a friendly guy. I think it's a good choice to do disconnect with negativity for now I cannot wait to start it. Also I will run OAA with it.. for hopefully a good solid 2 months with little to no gaps in between. Then on to alpha male. I'm ready for more boosts of motivation, focus, and optimism.
"To love completely and hold onto nothing-that is the only freedom." -David Deida
"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
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"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
