Damn.. just did PSTEC on this feeling in my head. And also in my body there's 2 big places of tension, my solar plexus and stomach and it seems no matter how much I let myself feel it that it doesn't clear at all.
Now I feel worse, head is hurting, sadness coming up.
And this is interesting, i've been curious about it. But all of a sudden after PSTEC i've got this strong urge to do Universal Detox.
Interesting.. I just realized along with that are feelings of "DMSI will never work, and in general i'll never be able to deal with my issues with girls or really get the ones I want, so I should just never bother."
This is probably the worst i've felt for a while. Suddenly I want to eat tons, look at porn, anything to hopefully feel better.
EDIT: I seem to have hit the wellspring. The feelings of wanting to look at porn, or even drink when I don't drink has come up before. But now i'm having all these feelings of going and eating how I used to, pizza, desserts, etc.. I can't remember the last time I had those strong desires. I haven't eaten either of those things for 4 years and haven't missed them. Suddenly now I want them bad. I can deal with it, but i've definately hit something strong.
Now I feel worse, head is hurting, sadness coming up.
And this is interesting, i've been curious about it. But all of a sudden after PSTEC i've got this strong urge to do Universal Detox.
Interesting.. I just realized along with that are feelings of "DMSI will never work, and in general i'll never be able to deal with my issues with girls or really get the ones I want, so I should just never bother."
This is probably the worst i've felt for a while. Suddenly I want to eat tons, look at porn, anything to hopefully feel better.
EDIT: I seem to have hit the wellspring. The feelings of wanting to look at porn, or even drink when I don't drink has come up before. But now i'm having all these feelings of going and eating how I used to, pizza, desserts, etc.. I can't remember the last time I had those strong desires. I haven't eaten either of those things for 4 years and haven't missed them. Suddenly now I want them bad. I can deal with it, but i've definately hit something strong.
