08-20-2017, 07:32 AM
7 days since my last post...
Well, it's because there hasn't been much to say, really. The changes aren't rapid or noticeable anymore. Oddly, I think that's...good?
I went with my wife's family to see close family friends of theirs last night. After initial re-introductions, I was approached by the patriarch of their family - a True Alpha. This guy is one of the only men I've ever met in person where I can just feel a genuine alpha presence. I like him a lot, and he likes me. We took a cruise together - both families - a few years after my wife and I started dating. One night at dinner, I was completely loaded. I had my wife's sister (who obviously wasn't my sister-in-law at the time) and this guy absolutely dying from laughter. Since then, he's hired my dad (a tax lawyer, probably one of the best in the entire country, let alone the state) for estate planning and doing the tax work for his (very successful) construction company.
This home I was in, which he built, overlooked a gorgeous green valley - I hope to have a home like it somewhere peaceful some day, but I digress. After we spoke, I didn't speak to anyone but my wife and son for the majority of the evening. I just didn't care to. It's as if I was unapproachable, in the sense people felt like they weren't up-to-par with me. That sounds a little arrogant, but it's how it felt. It's also how *I* felt (like I didn't have anything in common with anyone, and didn't care to associate myself with them). I snubbed my sister-in-law all night. She'd look at me, and I'd turn away or walk away. If she thinks sticking her chest out at me is enough to grab my attention anymore, she's got a lot of work to do.
The most interesting thing was Alpha Guy's daughter-in-law. She's 9 months pregnant, and all-baby. And breasts (take note, Shannon
). She's smokin' hot, but very, very quiet. I've never had a conversation with her. She gives one-word answers, and never asks her own questions. But like I said, she's gorgeous (and smart/driven - working on a doctorate in physical therapy...bonus!!). I was looking around the room, and caught her eye. I looked away, then scanned back. She was still looking. Then I broke eye contact again. And again, when I scan back, she's still staring at me. That garnered a mental WTF!?
When the night came to an end (we left early, because we had to get the kids home), my mother-in-law enthusiastically hugged me, my father-in-law aggressively shook my hand and told me he was looking forward to seeing me in a week for our fishing trip, my BIL/SIL were sheepishly looking at me - like they were hoping I'd notice them and say goodbye (which I did). The host family clung onto us, delaying our departure by 15 minutes, like they weren't ready to say goodbye. So, clearly, good things going on. I guess it seems "normal," because I've gone from "becoming," to "have become," and I'm now just looking for more.
In conclusion, my observations for the evening are that 1.) I'm unrelateable, unapproachable, and/or intimidating, 2.) ASD is kicking like a horse for the ladies, 3.) IDGAF is so strong, I come across as bored/uninterested/can't be bothered.
Last notes to mention:
Saw "A" on Friday night. Had no clue she was coming over to the house. She was wearing short-shorts, and appeared very nervous. When she sat across from me, her legs were spread open. At one point, she started talking about when her boys were older that she'll tell them never to trust any women, and never to believe what they tell them - "If they say they're on birth control, don't believe them, and wear a condom!" Then she alluded to herself being sexually active at a young age, and getting pregnant. Not sure where all of that came from. At another point, my wife was down the driveway talking with another work friend, and "A" walked away from me to them - but as she did, she "scratched" her leg. This necessitated, apparently, lifting her shorts up SO HIGH she showed me she wasn't wearing any underwear. :exclamation:
I'm getting frustrated with the dowsing. The past few days, I'm either getting conflicting answers, answers waay different than normal, or no answer at all. I gave up on it completely last night, and changed from 1 loop to 5 loops. I slept right through them, but tossed a few times. Those times I tossed in my sleep, I noticed that no wood was present, but I was radiating heat. This morning I woke up to my son using the bathroom, and reluctantly dragged my ass out of bed.
That's it for now. I'll update as I notice changes and/or experience noteworthy events.
Well, it's because there hasn't been much to say, really. The changes aren't rapid or noticeable anymore. Oddly, I think that's...good?
I went with my wife's family to see close family friends of theirs last night. After initial re-introductions, I was approached by the patriarch of their family - a True Alpha. This guy is one of the only men I've ever met in person where I can just feel a genuine alpha presence. I like him a lot, and he likes me. We took a cruise together - both families - a few years after my wife and I started dating. One night at dinner, I was completely loaded. I had my wife's sister (who obviously wasn't my sister-in-law at the time) and this guy absolutely dying from laughter. Since then, he's hired my dad (a tax lawyer, probably one of the best in the entire country, let alone the state) for estate planning and doing the tax work for his (very successful) construction company.
This home I was in, which he built, overlooked a gorgeous green valley - I hope to have a home like it somewhere peaceful some day, but I digress. After we spoke, I didn't speak to anyone but my wife and son for the majority of the evening. I just didn't care to. It's as if I was unapproachable, in the sense people felt like they weren't up-to-par with me. That sounds a little arrogant, but it's how it felt. It's also how *I* felt (like I didn't have anything in common with anyone, and didn't care to associate myself with them). I snubbed my sister-in-law all night. She'd look at me, and I'd turn away or walk away. If she thinks sticking her chest out at me is enough to grab my attention anymore, she's got a lot of work to do.
The most interesting thing was Alpha Guy's daughter-in-law. She's 9 months pregnant, and all-baby. And breasts (take note, Shannon
). She's smokin' hot, but very, very quiet. I've never had a conversation with her. She gives one-word answers, and never asks her own questions. But like I said, she's gorgeous (and smart/driven - working on a doctorate in physical therapy...bonus!!). I was looking around the room, and caught her eye. I looked away, then scanned back. She was still looking. Then I broke eye contact again. And again, when I scan back, she's still staring at me. That garnered a mental WTF!?When the night came to an end (we left early, because we had to get the kids home), my mother-in-law enthusiastically hugged me, my father-in-law aggressively shook my hand and told me he was looking forward to seeing me in a week for our fishing trip, my BIL/SIL were sheepishly looking at me - like they were hoping I'd notice them and say goodbye (which I did). The host family clung onto us, delaying our departure by 15 minutes, like they weren't ready to say goodbye. So, clearly, good things going on. I guess it seems "normal," because I've gone from "becoming," to "have become," and I'm now just looking for more.
In conclusion, my observations for the evening are that 1.) I'm unrelateable, unapproachable, and/or intimidating, 2.) ASD is kicking like a horse for the ladies, 3.) IDGAF is so strong, I come across as bored/uninterested/can't be bothered.
Last notes to mention:
Saw "A" on Friday night. Had no clue she was coming over to the house. She was wearing short-shorts, and appeared very nervous. When she sat across from me, her legs were spread open. At one point, she started talking about when her boys were older that she'll tell them never to trust any women, and never to believe what they tell them - "If they say they're on birth control, don't believe them, and wear a condom!" Then she alluded to herself being sexually active at a young age, and getting pregnant. Not sure where all of that came from. At another point, my wife was down the driveway talking with another work friend, and "A" walked away from me to them - but as she did, she "scratched" her leg. This necessitated, apparently, lifting her shorts up SO HIGH she showed me she wasn't wearing any underwear. :exclamation:
I'm getting frustrated with the dowsing. The past few days, I'm either getting conflicting answers, answers waay different than normal, or no answer at all. I gave up on it completely last night, and changed from 1 loop to 5 loops. I slept right through them, but tossed a few times. Those times I tossed in my sleep, I noticed that no wood was present, but I was radiating heat. This morning I woke up to my son using the bathroom, and reluctantly dragged my ass out of bed.
That's it for now. I'll update as I notice changes and/or experience noteworthy events.
