I'm glad I kept exploring, I found something else under those feelings and explored it. During it I got really relaxed and nearly fell asleep.
Then I went and deleted a ton of games off my pc that i'd installed and were just sitting there and i'd just keep them though I never played them much and likely won't play most of them again.
I've never seen my steam games list so small.
Felt alot better after that.
The healing seems to be going to alot more stuff than expected, at the moment it seems to come up in force again when I think of going back to being with girls and look at dating sites, alot of stuff comes up.. like tonight, and then I go back to dealing with that. Where before when I didn't know better I could still be with girls with all this shit running in the background, now i'm confronting it.
The temporary frustration, that in the longer term will be a positive. I'm finally understanding the meaning of DMSI healing 'everything' in the way. Like it seems it's not just going to 'ok that's good enough to be with some girls'... it's like 'let's deal with everything'.
In the long run, a good thing. Short term.. some frustration.
But that's ok. The things that are happening recently are well worth that.
Then I went and deleted a ton of games off my pc that i'd installed and were just sitting there and i'd just keep them though I never played them much and likely won't play most of them again.
I've never seen my steam games list so small.
Felt alot better after that.
The healing seems to be going to alot more stuff than expected, at the moment it seems to come up in force again when I think of going back to being with girls and look at dating sites, alot of stuff comes up.. like tonight, and then I go back to dealing with that. Where before when I didn't know better I could still be with girls with all this shit running in the background, now i'm confronting it.
The temporary frustration, that in the longer term will be a positive. I'm finally understanding the meaning of DMSI healing 'everything' in the way. Like it seems it's not just going to 'ok that's good enough to be with some girls'... it's like 'let's deal with everything'.
In the long run, a good thing. Short term.. some frustration.
But that's ok. The things that are happening recently are well worth that.
