08-15-2017, 05:18 PM
Quote:You've just been though a massive life change, having contacted your mother. You'd be surprised how much an event like that can exhaust the mind. There's a scale for life events, and the amount of stress they cause. Even positive life events like marriage, buying a house, and having a baby affect a person - as much as a death in the family, divorce, etc. Meeting your birth family and everything that comes with that is hhhhyyyyyooooooge.
Thanks man, I didn't even consider that. In my mind it's like "but it's positive, why am I so drained". It also might make sense that for that whole day, though i'm usually quiet in groups I talked almost non stop for like 5 hours. So much opening up more than i'm used to, would make sense that drained me too.
Quote:I get the same sensation of tiredness behind the eyes every now and again, too.
Interesting, it's also similar to the feeling of if i've had too much coffee. Sometimes when i've released something the feelings comes up to.
Quote:The other thing - I have experienced the same. It is like a sense of loss - even when the thing being "lost" is something completely unnecessary and it's better to be rid of it. I think that it is an ego thing - something that has always been used by you to define "you" (even if but subconsciously - and in a negative, unproductive way) is now gone/being removed and thus may result in something resembling grief (like RTBoss pointed out); one hell of a huge change is taking place, and now "you" is in a state of flux. That is why change can, by its very nature, be scary, I guess.
Oh yes.. definately. That makes alot of sense.
Even if something is negative like the abandonment and rejection. I've been so used to it that it feels wrong without it. Well I wouldn't say it's completely gone, but i've made massive progress.
Seems I was onto something when I explored the sadness yesterday then thought "actually, maybe this is some kind of grief".
