08-08-2017, 01:33 PM
(This post was last modified: 08-08-2017, 04:58 PM by Have at ye.)
Hmm, been doing 2 loops these past three days - and feeling the resistance headache come up again - lightly throughout the day, and now coming on stronger, on the left side of my brain and threatening to spread. I'm about to start listening to my loops. I'll try 4 tonight, see if it either makes it stronger or breaks through. Consciously I do not really know what this could be about. Oh well. If I should, I think I'll let me know, sooner or later. Let's get the DMSI on.
(EDIT: Should push come to shove, I'll go back to doing 7 loops - it has succeeded previously in making a breakthrough, but put in me in such an altered state of awareness that I was pretty much unable to focus on anything else besides processing DMSI; the state shift was so strong that I'd be *very* reluctant to, f. in., drive a car, and it held on like this for 2-3 days. The only thing I was good for then was taking long walks, interacting with females, eating like crazy, and maybe reading a book, but very slowly, lol)
(EDIT II: Something actually tells me that the headaches increasing in intensity is, paradoxically, a good sign. The light headaches were too weak for my stubborn self, I think - I have pretty high pain tolerance, so a light headache is like *meh*. When it gets really hurty, I actually have to pay attention to it, and it should, sooner or later, become so uncomfortable for me physically that I will relent and execute whatever I am resisting like an idiot)
UPDATE: OW, my frickin' head, OUCH!
UPDATE II: The headache seems to be withdrawing starting with loop no. 3, now there's a slight morphine drip/high effect instead.
(EDIT: Should push come to shove, I'll go back to doing 7 loops - it has succeeded previously in making a breakthrough, but put in me in such an altered state of awareness that I was pretty much unable to focus on anything else besides processing DMSI; the state shift was so strong that I'd be *very* reluctant to, f. in., drive a car, and it held on like this for 2-3 days. The only thing I was good for then was taking long walks, interacting with females, eating like crazy, and maybe reading a book, but very slowly, lol)
(EDIT II: Something actually tells me that the headaches increasing in intensity is, paradoxically, a good sign. The light headaches were too weak for my stubborn self, I think - I have pretty high pain tolerance, so a light headache is like *meh*. When it gets really hurty, I actually have to pay attention to it, and it should, sooner or later, become so uncomfortable for me physically that I will relent and execute whatever I am resisting like an idiot)
UPDATE: OW, my frickin' head, OUCH!
UPDATE II: The headache seems to be withdrawing starting with loop no. 3, now there's a slight morphine drip/high effect instead.
