08-05-2017, 08:51 PM
(08-05-2017, 11:10 AM)dissonance Wrote: Do you feet hurt after your 9 hour shifts at work?
Used to, but not anymore after I fixed my posture. I had to train my feet to maintain their natural arches. I was very flat footed.
Alright so something snapped in me tonight, but in a good way. I'm done just coasting through life and hoping for things to turn out ok. I'm going to make things great for myself. I'm not going to limit myself to what I think is possible anymore, I'm just going to focus on what I want in life and let it manifest itself. This means I have to stop giving a shit about the hows and whys or feasibility of things and just use the power of my mind to make it happen. Believe it's going to happen and just leave it at that. I know people have done great things, I know how powerful the mind is, all I have to do is stop getting in my own way and believe I can do the same stuff. There will be doubt, there's always doubt, but I can rise above that doubt.
The hardest part for me seems to be my resistance and how it manifests. Seems like for years now my resistance has manifested in over the top passivity disguised as "peace" or "tranquility" or "spiritual advancement" whatever you want to call it, it was a sham. I was afraid to take control, to direct my life, had this mistaken assumption that too much control over one's life was wrong. But it was all lies, all of it. The more I tried to change, the more my subconscious pulled back into this passive state. It got to the point where life happened to me and I reacted it to it, I didn't control life. Granted there are some events we can't control, but a lot of stuff that happened to me was 100% under my control and I abandon that control. In a way what I retreated into was no different than drugs, I was addicted to making myself feel comfortable to hide what I really felt about my life instead of facing it.
