07-31-2017, 08:06 PM
Funny.. so I spent weeks not being able to stop thinking about the girl I was seeing before and I mentioned a few nights ago I did some work around it and cleared something then deleted her number and her messages.
And I felt better about it though there's a little 'something' left.
Well today I went down the street to do some things and I decided to goto a cafe to read a book I got printed. I was in my own world but after a bit I recognized a voice, it sounded exactly like her friend, then I heard her voice.. turns out they had come in and were sitting behind me.
I felt a little weird but kept reading, the main feeling was not wanting to reconnect with her and not caring as much. But some conflict as I noticed my vision and head constricted a little.
When I left I was like "are you wagging work to have coffee?" and I didn't have the desire to stay there so I just said "Have fun" and left and my heart was beating faster and I was in an altered state.
The thing I was surprised about though there was some residual emotions I didn't have any kind of 'pull' towards her, no need to 'sort things out' or 'tell her she's retarded' which are all things I wanted to do for weeks.
But honestly it can't be a coincidence stuff like this happening. I genuinely went there just to read because when i'm at home I get distracted, and there she is especially on a day I would have expected her to be at work.
It both gave me some relief and showed some residual stuff that I can work on around her because i'm not totally over it by the reaction I had.
And I felt better about it though there's a little 'something' left.
Well today I went down the street to do some things and I decided to goto a cafe to read a book I got printed. I was in my own world but after a bit I recognized a voice, it sounded exactly like her friend, then I heard her voice.. turns out they had come in and were sitting behind me.
I felt a little weird but kept reading, the main feeling was not wanting to reconnect with her and not caring as much. But some conflict as I noticed my vision and head constricted a little.
When I left I was like "are you wagging work to have coffee?" and I didn't have the desire to stay there so I just said "Have fun" and left and my heart was beating faster and I was in an altered state.
The thing I was surprised about though there was some residual emotions I didn't have any kind of 'pull' towards her, no need to 'sort things out' or 'tell her she's retarded' which are all things I wanted to do for weeks.
But honestly it can't be a coincidence stuff like this happening. I genuinely went there just to read because when i'm at home I get distracted, and there she is especially on a day I would have expected her to be at work.
It both gave me some relief and showed some residual stuff that I can work on around her because i'm not totally over it by the reaction I had.
