07-30-2017, 05:53 AM
Lots of clearing going on. Mostly around low self-esteem and my attempts to rid myself of it or improve it. One of the bad habits I have is trying to do too much at once in an attempt to clear everything away in one day. I'm learning to go up against my anxiety and actually face the problems that I'm attempting to clear away with learning rather than blocking them out and hoping what I learn will take care of them.
There's also a lot of resentment towards my peers and the things I've done to fit in, like appearing dumber than I am or smarter than I am. I've given up a lot of my own desires to fit in, and the clearing is working on helping me become more independent and own my beliefs about what I want to learn rather than abandoning them.
With certain things I'm trying to learn I'm taking a long term approach rather than a short-term burst of activity and the inevitable slump and disinterest. 30 minutes a day, or 30 minutes in the morning, 30 minutes at night. Over the course of a week that's 3.5-7 hours of time. Over the course of a month thats 15-30 hours. A year it's 180 hrs - 360 hrs, more than enough to be proficient at most things and even master a few.
MLS is also showing me how to get what I want immediately and then build upon that. For example, I'm trying to improve my posture. I identified a few bad habits I've picked up and simple, easy ways to correct them and immediately improve my posture. The more advanced things I can now learn at a leisurely pace and build upon the habits I've already learned.
There's also a lot of resentment towards my peers and the things I've done to fit in, like appearing dumber than I am or smarter than I am. I've given up a lot of my own desires to fit in, and the clearing is working on helping me become more independent and own my beliefs about what I want to learn rather than abandoning them.
With certain things I'm trying to learn I'm taking a long term approach rather than a short-term burst of activity and the inevitable slump and disinterest. 30 minutes a day, or 30 minutes in the morning, 30 minutes at night. Over the course of a week that's 3.5-7 hours of time. Over the course of a month thats 15-30 hours. A year it's 180 hrs - 360 hrs, more than enough to be proficient at most things and even master a few.
MLS is also showing me how to get what I want immediately and then build upon that. For example, I'm trying to improve my posture. I identified a few bad habits I've picked up and simple, easy ways to correct them and immediately improve my posture. The more advanced things I can now learn at a leisurely pace and build upon the habits I've already learned.
