07-27-2017, 11:21 AM
Days 6-7 of MLS
Haven't played MLS for more than a loop and a half these last two days.
First my Mp3 player fell into the toilet (clean toilet, but still
), then the left side of my headphones went out, then last night they both stopped working. Inconvenient, but hey, I'll just play MLS from my laptop speakers as I sleep. And... my laptop is no longer charging.
I was using it in the University lounge then I got up and went to Starbucks and found it was no longer charging. Tried 3 different ports, nothing. Even went back to the University lounge that I was at just 30 minutes previous and found that it wouldn't work there either.
What the fuck lol. I'm curious if this is unconscious resistance as this is all too coincidental.
Anyway, enough bitching, here are my results:
My procrastination is slowly going away. First of all, it's being highlighted and I'm being made aware of when I procrastinate, which makes it easier to get back on task. Secondly, I'm finding my desire to procrastinate to be diminishing. I'm less interested in the sites and things I do to procrastinate. It's still here, but I imagine that it'll continue to be dealt with and I'll procrastinate less and less.
I've been itching to approach women since I started MLS. I feel very little fear, although I haven't been in the best circumstances to do so. Soon I'll be in better circumstances and I'll be doing more of it. I've been making observations to women I see around me during the day automatically and I'll have them stop and talk to me for a while before I end the conversation or they continue where they're going. If I'm doing this with just 3 women a day, that's 90 women a month. In the course of my run of MLS I'm sure I'll secure quite a few numbers, dates and lays. That was an issue I had with DMSI in that although I should have been approaching more, I was usually too depressed and anxious to do so.
I'm noticing things like my humor, presence and general charisma are increasing on MLS in ways they weren't on DMSI, which is why I'll continue to run MLS for at least 6 months. I'm sure DMSI helped in clearing all sorts of bullshit I'm not aware of, but I'm no longer interested in the goal when I can accomplish it myself.
Another thing of note here is that I've been hanging out at my local University more. I chose to go to Community College and didn't even take my SATs or try to get into University. With what MLS is bringing up now I think a lot of that may have just been fear, feelings of unworthiness and such. I hang out at the University library instead of the college library now to get my studying done because I like the environment better. I want to transfer here in a semester or two, and it seems my brain is priming itself to be a student.
Haven't played MLS for more than a loop and a half these last two days.
First my Mp3 player fell into the toilet (clean toilet, but still
), then the left side of my headphones went out, then last night they both stopped working. Inconvenient, but hey, I'll just play MLS from my laptop speakers as I sleep. And... my laptop is no longer charging. I was using it in the University lounge then I got up and went to Starbucks and found it was no longer charging. Tried 3 different ports, nothing. Even went back to the University lounge that I was at just 30 minutes previous and found that it wouldn't work there either.
What the fuck lol. I'm curious if this is unconscious resistance as this is all too coincidental.
Anyway, enough bitching, here are my results:
My procrastination is slowly going away. First of all, it's being highlighted and I'm being made aware of when I procrastinate, which makes it easier to get back on task. Secondly, I'm finding my desire to procrastinate to be diminishing. I'm less interested in the sites and things I do to procrastinate. It's still here, but I imagine that it'll continue to be dealt with and I'll procrastinate less and less.
I've been itching to approach women since I started MLS. I feel very little fear, although I haven't been in the best circumstances to do so. Soon I'll be in better circumstances and I'll be doing more of it. I've been making observations to women I see around me during the day automatically and I'll have them stop and talk to me for a while before I end the conversation or they continue where they're going. If I'm doing this with just 3 women a day, that's 90 women a month. In the course of my run of MLS I'm sure I'll secure quite a few numbers, dates and lays. That was an issue I had with DMSI in that although I should have been approaching more, I was usually too depressed and anxious to do so.
I'm noticing things like my humor, presence and general charisma are increasing on MLS in ways they weren't on DMSI, which is why I'll continue to run MLS for at least 6 months. I'm sure DMSI helped in clearing all sorts of bullshit I'm not aware of, but I'm no longer interested in the goal when I can accomplish it myself.
Another thing of note here is that I've been hanging out at my local University more. I chose to go to Community College and didn't even take my SATs or try to get into University. With what MLS is bringing up now I think a lot of that may have just been fear, feelings of unworthiness and such. I hang out at the University library instead of the college library now to get my studying done because I like the environment better. I want to transfer here in a semester or two, and it seems my brain is priming itself to be a student.
