01-22-2012, 10:20 PM
It's been a while again so I'll update. I need to make myself do more updates cause I've been kind of slacking this past month. I was on winter break and basically did nothing other than chill at home. I did go out to hang with friends on occasions, but for the most part I just hibernated. I've nearly finished stage 2 but I haven't had a chance to gauge myself till just recently, having started school again.
Maybe because I took some effort to work out a while back, my friends said that I look bigger and taller. My parents thought this too when they first saw me after a while, so I guess my pushups did do something. Of course from hearing that I've been feeling a bit more confident. Previously out of my group of guy friends, I was the skinniest(and I still am), but now I feel slightly closer to them in terms of size and this puts me at ease. Still I want to work out more and get the good abs and chests that my friends have, it's not easy :/
I've been changing my diet for a while, limiting my refined carbs, getting less meat and more veggies and nuts. Hopefully with a good workout I can see some more improvements.
At the moment, I still feel uneasy making any claims that I feel any different from having nearly finished stage 2. Just tonight I was hanging out with my friends and some girls, a few that I don't know. I was introduced to them and we all exchanged out pleasantries but I just didn't feel like I was able to make much of an impact during our introductions or afterward. Even for the girls who I did know and are friends with, I felt like I was just looking for stuff to talk about. This made me a bit uneasy. The adrenaline that powered me the previous night didn't seem to happen tonight and I felt no different than I was before.
It's a new school year and a time to meet new people, to make big changes. I feel that I have to catch on this new momentum or I'll be lost in it again like previous years. I've made a few resolutions to cut off distractions that bother with my studies and social life and also some set routines for overall improvement.
By the end of the week, there's gonna be a big party that I will be going to. I'm not a partying type at all and my mind blanks at the idea of having to approach a girl in the party. My friends all want to wing man me, but I have no experience with this and it frankly nerves me to think about having to do this. My friend keeps telling me to act like I'm the shit and care nothing about what other's think, but I just find it very hard to pull this off as it's basically the opposite of myself. I'm not quite sure what I can do to prepare myself for this night. Any suggestions?
I will be going to these parties every once in a while so it would be fairly easy to gauge myself during the next few months. Hopefully by the end of this program, I would no longer be as troubled by partying as I am now.
thanks for reading, anyone else just feel awkward at parties? I just tend to hang out with my friends there and do some grouped dances....
Maybe because I took some effort to work out a while back, my friends said that I look bigger and taller. My parents thought this too when they first saw me after a while, so I guess my pushups did do something. Of course from hearing that I've been feeling a bit more confident. Previously out of my group of guy friends, I was the skinniest(and I still am), but now I feel slightly closer to them in terms of size and this puts me at ease. Still I want to work out more and get the good abs and chests that my friends have, it's not easy :/
I've been changing my diet for a while, limiting my refined carbs, getting less meat and more veggies and nuts. Hopefully with a good workout I can see some more improvements.
At the moment, I still feel uneasy making any claims that I feel any different from having nearly finished stage 2. Just tonight I was hanging out with my friends and some girls, a few that I don't know. I was introduced to them and we all exchanged out pleasantries but I just didn't feel like I was able to make much of an impact during our introductions or afterward. Even for the girls who I did know and are friends with, I felt like I was just looking for stuff to talk about. This made me a bit uneasy. The adrenaline that powered me the previous night didn't seem to happen tonight and I felt no different than I was before.
It's a new school year and a time to meet new people, to make big changes. I feel that I have to catch on this new momentum or I'll be lost in it again like previous years. I've made a few resolutions to cut off distractions that bother with my studies and social life and also some set routines for overall improvement.
By the end of the week, there's gonna be a big party that I will be going to. I'm not a partying type at all and my mind blanks at the idea of having to approach a girl in the party. My friends all want to wing man me, but I have no experience with this and it frankly nerves me to think about having to do this. My friend keeps telling me to act like I'm the shit and care nothing about what other's think, but I just find it very hard to pull this off as it's basically the opposite of myself. I'm not quite sure what I can do to prepare myself for this night. Any suggestions?
I will be going to these parties every once in a while so it would be fairly easy to gauge myself during the next few months. Hopefully by the end of this program, I would no longer be as troubled by partying as I am now.
thanks for reading, anyone else just feel awkward at parties? I just tend to hang out with my friends there and do some grouped dances....
