I decided to skip listening last night, and fell asleep using Brain FM - 8 hours. It was interesting, as I had 4 or 5 dreams I recalled this morning, but none particularly sexual. As close as it got was a dream where I was jogging and a chick was jogging next to me with her boobies bouncing up and down. Some dude made a rude remark toward me, and she came to my defense with a snarky comment. Not sure what all that means. The rest of the dreams I've since forgotten.
But that's not why I'm posting. Today was my wife's first day back at work (so I listened to 5 loops while she was gone and the kids were napping this afternoon). She came home tonight and said, "Guess what information I came home with about people today!?"
"....?....."
She then spills that she talked to her hot coworker friend, the very same one I just ran into the pool on Friday. Guess what, gents? Since the week after she visited us and my newborn daughter in the hospital (and added me on Facebook), she's separated from her husband - and "feels relieved." She knew there was a problem when she "could never picture growing old together."
That news sent me for a loop. Never saw that coming. Of course, she didn't tell me all that at the pool when I asked about how she's been...but she sure gave that info up to my wife, knowing my wife would likely share it with me. Then she brought up my ex-friend/lifting partner from the gym. He's also just separated from HIS wife. He told her (my wife's hot co-worker friend) that his wife cheated on him - bwhahahaha! I think she believed him. He also said his wife is a nag, and I'll give him that one. All she did was nag his ass when I went over to their house. My wife then told hot coworker that we weren't friends anymore, because he threw shade at me - and it wasn't the first time. She further explained we expect mutual respect out of our friendships, and getting blown off for the second time was a deal breaker for me. Hot co-worker tried to make excuses for ex-lifting partner by saying, "He's been going through a lot..."
That leads me to...Hot coworker lamented to my wife that she was worried she'd never find someone else to share her life with. I about choked on my dinner. To hear that a woman I consider a legit 9/10 say that absolutely astounded me. She's a great mother, self-starter, fucking gorgeous, did I say gorgeous?, is learning to flip houses, running a successful MLM business, diligently works out, is a NICU RN to boot...I still remember when my wife told me she used to give her husband (at least) weekly blow jobs their entire marriage. WHAT!? This girl could have just about anyone. I'm going to find a picture and post it, at least temporarily.
Here's where I reacted in a way I didn't expect. With her comment about undeservedness, and positive comments about my ex-friend (who I arguably still hold a grudge against), I got emotional - jealous, even. I had a vision of them hooking up, and my old white knight tendencies came roaring back. At first, I didn't notice, but then I thought to myself..."Woooah! WTF!?" I even had words like "deservedness" come up (for instance, she "deserves" better than that!) - but in reality, I honestly don't even know her. So, so what if she fucks the dude? She's a big girl - she can make her own decisions for herself. There's a million women out there, she's not getting any pedestal time from me. I am happy with how fast I caught this pattern of thinking and began to deal with it. I feel a lot better now. But, being on DMSI, it probably won't help the fact that I'm eventually going to be confronted with an option to sleep with her myself.
That whole discussion about TID hitting people fast and hard on MLS? When I saw it, I had a clear realization that it was an eventuality with DMSI. No two ways about it, there IS a "version of me" that is having an affair with both my SIL and wife's hot co-worker friend simultaneously and I'm growing closer and closer to that probability line every day.
Yikes.
But that's not why I'm posting. Today was my wife's first day back at work (so I listened to 5 loops while she was gone and the kids were napping this afternoon). She came home tonight and said, "Guess what information I came home with about people today!?"
"....?....."
She then spills that she talked to her hot coworker friend, the very same one I just ran into the pool on Friday. Guess what, gents? Since the week after she visited us and my newborn daughter in the hospital (and added me on Facebook), she's separated from her husband - and "feels relieved." She knew there was a problem when she "could never picture growing old together."
That news sent me for a loop. Never saw that coming. Of course, she didn't tell me all that at the pool when I asked about how she's been...but she sure gave that info up to my wife, knowing my wife would likely share it with me. Then she brought up my ex-friend/lifting partner from the gym. He's also just separated from HIS wife. He told her (my wife's hot co-worker friend) that his wife cheated on him - bwhahahaha! I think she believed him. He also said his wife is a nag, and I'll give him that one. All she did was nag his ass when I went over to their house. My wife then told hot coworker that we weren't friends anymore, because he threw shade at me - and it wasn't the first time. She further explained we expect mutual respect out of our friendships, and getting blown off for the second time was a deal breaker for me. Hot co-worker tried to make excuses for ex-lifting partner by saying, "He's been going through a lot..."
That leads me to...Hot coworker lamented to my wife that she was worried she'd never find someone else to share her life with. I about choked on my dinner. To hear that a woman I consider a legit 9/10 say that absolutely astounded me. She's a great mother, self-starter, fucking gorgeous, did I say gorgeous?, is learning to flip houses, running a successful MLM business, diligently works out, is a NICU RN to boot...I still remember when my wife told me she used to give her husband (at least) weekly blow jobs their entire marriage. WHAT!? This girl could have just about anyone. I'm going to find a picture and post it, at least temporarily.
Here's where I reacted in a way I didn't expect. With her comment about undeservedness, and positive comments about my ex-friend (who I arguably still hold a grudge against), I got emotional - jealous, even. I had a vision of them hooking up, and my old white knight tendencies came roaring back. At first, I didn't notice, but then I thought to myself..."Woooah! WTF!?" I even had words like "deservedness" come up (for instance, she "deserves" better than that!) - but in reality, I honestly don't even know her. So, so what if she fucks the dude? She's a big girl - she can make her own decisions for herself. There's a million women out there, she's not getting any pedestal time from me. I am happy with how fast I caught this pattern of thinking and began to deal with it. I feel a lot better now. But, being on DMSI, it probably won't help the fact that I'm eventually going to be confronted with an option to sleep with her myself.
That whole discussion about TID hitting people fast and hard on MLS? When I saw it, I had a clear realization that it was an eventuality with DMSI. No two ways about it, there IS a "version of me" that is having an affair with both my SIL and wife's hot co-worker friend simultaneously and I'm growing closer and closer to that probability line every day.
Yikes.
