07-21-2017, 05:06 AM
(This post was last modified: 07-21-2017, 05:10 AM by Have at ye.)
So, I've been doing 2 loops morning, 2 loops evening these past two days. And lemme tell you, I feel excruciatingly tired all the time - feels like I'd just like to curl up in a little ball of boredom and misery and go to sleep, but I've got trouble doing that too lately. 
Something's being worked on. It might be that the program is driving me to do or realize something big, and it is not exactly a pleasant or smooth experience. No idea what exactly that would be, though. I'll stick to the 2 loops morning, 2 loops evening deal at least until Sunday, and then maybe I'll add some more loops to the mix. Will try to tough it out with ver. B until the end of the month in such a way. Only 10 days left to go!
I've basically been driven to remove all distractions (no vidya games, no tv shows, no pornography, etc., still working on cigarettes and caffeine, though) throughout my time with DMSI, and now that I've got none at hand... well... I don't have anything to distract me from the general misery of resisting the script, or I dunno what.
Had an audition lined up for Saturday, but it got moved to September, because of course it did. I've just realized that for some reason, my summer's have been rather boring and miserable these past 3-4 years, heh.
Honestly, if I had the potato to buy MLS, I'd switch subs. But since I don't, I'm sticking to DMSI. Perhaps this is for the better in the long run. I dunno.
EDIT
Funnily enough, throughout that I do get moments of the morphine drip sensation, and various other physical sensations that seem to be related to projecting the DMSI aura (increased bodyheat, electrical current around limbs, warmth in the heart chakra area etc.).
Something's being worked on. It might be that the program is driving me to do or realize something big, and it is not exactly a pleasant or smooth experience. No idea what exactly that would be, though. I'll stick to the 2 loops morning, 2 loops evening deal at least until Sunday, and then maybe I'll add some more loops to the mix. Will try to tough it out with ver. B until the end of the month in such a way. Only 10 days left to go!I've basically been driven to remove all distractions (no vidya games, no tv shows, no pornography, etc., still working on cigarettes and caffeine, though) throughout my time with DMSI, and now that I've got none at hand... well... I don't have anything to distract me from the general misery of resisting the script, or I dunno what.
Had an audition lined up for Saturday, but it got moved to September, because of course it did.
I've just realized that for some reason, my summer's have been rather boring and miserable these past 3-4 years, heh.Honestly, if I had the potato to buy MLS, I'd switch subs. But since I don't, I'm sticking to DMSI. Perhaps this is for the better in the long run. I dunno.
EDIT
Funnily enough, throughout that I do get moments of the morphine drip sensation, and various other physical sensations that seem to be related to projecting the DMSI aura (increased bodyheat, electrical current around limbs, warmth in the heart chakra area etc.).
