The dialogue today was simple.. I explored doing a reparenting meditation and whether it would suit and the answer was yes and to do it twice a day, when I first goto bed before I put DMSI on and before I get up in the morning.
I've already been doing my own version of it that come from one of the dialogues for about a week around imagining myself expressing my anger to her then reconnecting with her and feeling the love that I didn't get. It did help calm down the intensity I felt yesterday but there is some blockage to me fully allowing myself to feel it, still I feel it's helping.
And will continue that through the day aswell as this other one twice a day.
And the other thing is something i'm resisting doing, my higher self (also part of Inner Bonding) said to delete my dating profiles while doing this process for atleast 30 days.
You can imagine with how i've used that as a coping mechanism for so many years how much I don't want to do that.
But as i've discovered for the moment being with girls potentially covers up the emotions i'm trying to deal with. Though if the opportunity comes up I can't say i'd say no to it, i'll just work on focusing on myself for atleast these 30 days.
So Reparenting meditation started 16/7/17 Atleast 30 days twice a day, when I goto bed before putting on DMSI and just before getting up.
So yeah my journals not going to be anything 'sexy' for a while, it's just gonna be more of this stuff because this is what I need.
I've already been doing my own version of it that come from one of the dialogues for about a week around imagining myself expressing my anger to her then reconnecting with her and feeling the love that I didn't get. It did help calm down the intensity I felt yesterday but there is some blockage to me fully allowing myself to feel it, still I feel it's helping.
And will continue that through the day aswell as this other one twice a day.
And the other thing is something i'm resisting doing, my higher self (also part of Inner Bonding) said to delete my dating profiles while doing this process for atleast 30 days.
You can imagine with how i've used that as a coping mechanism for so many years how much I don't want to do that.
But as i've discovered for the moment being with girls potentially covers up the emotions i'm trying to deal with. Though if the opportunity comes up I can't say i'd say no to it, i'll just work on focusing on myself for atleast these 30 days.
So Reparenting meditation started 16/7/17 Atleast 30 days twice a day, when I goto bed before putting on DMSI and just before getting up.
So yeah my journals not going to be anything 'sexy' for a while, it's just gonna be more of this stuff because this is what I need.
