On A I get along way better with girls and also have less fear and talk to them much more naturally. The whole 2 weeks or so I was on B I just felt awkward and they pretty much run away.
The combination of Inner Bonding seems synergistic so far and making me more comfortable again and improving interactions, that may have something to do with connecting with myself more instead of 'looking outside' myself as much. One noticable thing today is talking to a girl at the gym who I talked to a few times but she reacted weird in the past, kind of shy and awkward, she's 17 but really come across as a kid in her manner. But the way she looks is the complete opposite of that.
I hesitated a little because of her reactions in the past but when I was thinking she just come right over near me to do an exercise coincidentally and I talked to her and she was relaxed, didn't give off that weird vibe and was friendly. I cut it a bit short because I had this slight bit of discomfort and when I did saying "Ok i'm done, have a good workout" she gave me a look like she was disappointed and surprised I was going right then.
Inner Bonding is subtle but it's helping. And the lower amount of loops on A seems to be helping too, doing 8 loops and just trying to smash myself with the change didn't seem to go as well as doing less.
The other thing happening is i'm starting to get this big urge for other Self Development again. I've been reading about methods that i'd looked at in the past that have been reported to be highly effective aswell as some other methods i'd used briefly that had good reports too.
And i'm getting this big urge to start some of them again, mainly for other goals, like money, business, success in general as DMSI isn't going to achieve that specifically though it is bringing me closer to things by getting me to focus on Inner Bonding on my abandonment.
But for now atleast I won't, current plan is to finish up the 3 months on Version A combined with Inner Bonding daily that I worked out through dialoguing internally and after that make a decision of what's next.
It does seem like though it's my subconscious through the US programming being like "Ok there's other areas to work on and these methods will help". But it's difficult to know the potential conflict. Inner Bonding i'm glad I started though, the sway test told me it would help me with DMSI and it is.
The combination of Inner Bonding seems synergistic so far and making me more comfortable again and improving interactions, that may have something to do with connecting with myself more instead of 'looking outside' myself as much. One noticable thing today is talking to a girl at the gym who I talked to a few times but she reacted weird in the past, kind of shy and awkward, she's 17 but really come across as a kid in her manner. But the way she looks is the complete opposite of that.
I hesitated a little because of her reactions in the past but when I was thinking she just come right over near me to do an exercise coincidentally and I talked to her and she was relaxed, didn't give off that weird vibe and was friendly. I cut it a bit short because I had this slight bit of discomfort and when I did saying "Ok i'm done, have a good workout" she gave me a look like she was disappointed and surprised I was going right then.
Inner Bonding is subtle but it's helping. And the lower amount of loops on A seems to be helping too, doing 8 loops and just trying to smash myself with the change didn't seem to go as well as doing less.
The other thing happening is i'm starting to get this big urge for other Self Development again. I've been reading about methods that i'd looked at in the past that have been reported to be highly effective aswell as some other methods i'd used briefly that had good reports too.
And i'm getting this big urge to start some of them again, mainly for other goals, like money, business, success in general as DMSI isn't going to achieve that specifically though it is bringing me closer to things by getting me to focus on Inner Bonding on my abandonment.
But for now atleast I won't, current plan is to finish up the 3 months on Version A combined with Inner Bonding daily that I worked out through dialoguing internally and after that make a decision of what's next.
It does seem like though it's my subconscious through the US programming being like "Ok there's other areas to work on and these methods will help". But it's difficult to know the potential conflict. Inner Bonding i'm glad I started though, the sway test told me it would help me with DMSI and it is.
