07-07-2017, 07:36 AM
Sexual performance is a bit better on A and it feels there is noticably less pressure to perform than on B but it's still not ideal, especially recovery time. It's still frustrating me though and doesn't seem to be passing. I am thinking of doing Male Sexual Qigong 5 days a week instead of just 3 to help with this more, because doing it has atleast helped with this issue a bit.
Another thing that I am confused about. And it's related to Inner Bonding and reconnecting with myself and not looking for it on the outside.
So I noticed today thinking of seeing the girl i've been seeing for the last few months that I wasn't as desperate for sex.. it wasn't like "Oh I really just have to have sex with her" and it felt weird like "what is going on, this is unusual". More like "Yeah I could have sex, but whatever".
Then after the gym we had a shower at my place and had sex, and it seemed to flow more naturally and felt better. The first and second time it was fine then the weirdness I mentioned come in.
But the other point that is possibly happening. I felt a little less sex drive and didn't go as many times as usual.
And I had this thought "Was some of my sex drive connected to this feeling of having to have sex to feel good about myself?" and with that lessening it seemed less. The first time I went for it in the shower, but other than that it was her going for it more aggressively than usual. Especially later in the night before she left, and near the end I was sitting there and just wouldn't get hard which is annoying and part of the issue with DMSI 3.1.
But taking that annoyance out of account, possibly the shift of not looking for it to 'fill myself up/feel whole' as much and instead just enjoying it when it come up might have been making her go for it more aggressively tonight.
Another thing that I am confused about. And it's related to Inner Bonding and reconnecting with myself and not looking for it on the outside.
So I noticed today thinking of seeing the girl i've been seeing for the last few months that I wasn't as desperate for sex.. it wasn't like "Oh I really just have to have sex with her" and it felt weird like "what is going on, this is unusual". More like "Yeah I could have sex, but whatever".
Then after the gym we had a shower at my place and had sex, and it seemed to flow more naturally and felt better. The first and second time it was fine then the weirdness I mentioned come in.
But the other point that is possibly happening. I felt a little less sex drive and didn't go as many times as usual.
And I had this thought "Was some of my sex drive connected to this feeling of having to have sex to feel good about myself?" and with that lessening it seemed less. The first time I went for it in the shower, but other than that it was her going for it more aggressively than usual. Especially later in the night before she left, and near the end I was sitting there and just wouldn't get hard which is annoying and part of the issue with DMSI 3.1.
But taking that annoyance out of account, possibly the shift of not looking for it to 'fill myself up/feel whole' as much and instead just enjoying it when it come up might have been making her go for it more aggressively tonight.
