07-03-2017, 01:58 PM
(This post was last modified: 07-03-2017, 02:33 PM by ResJudicata.)
Day 94
I've been super horny the last few days which is weird for me. It's also causing me an increased desire to masturbate to relieve the horniness which is hard to resist as the horniness can reach distracting levels. I just get this feeling like I really need to fuck someone and can't get it out of my head. Makes it a bit harder to focus to do actual work (legal job requires a lot of mental focus and energy), leading further to me masturbating to relieve myself in the morning before going to work.
Still have feelings of tiredness, probably not enough sleep with mind so active but not the fatigue I was feeling the first week. Also might be because I awoke around midnight and was up for an hour and couldn't fall back asleep.
Trying to decide whether to switch to hybrid because it's more powerful or stick with masked. I know Shannon said in another thread he had 2 hypotheses about whether hybrid and the resistance indicating it's doing something is better or the heavy resistance means one should switch to masked. Considering the violent bodily reaction I had to MHS when I did a couple of days of hybrid, I have no idea. I also don't remember much progress with slightly earlier versions of DMSI when I was listening to hybrid. I think I'll stick with masked for now since it seems to be having some effect on me. Then again, I hope I'm getting some results from listening to 4 times the recommended number of loops.
Still have the desire to do a run of MHS afterward as I have a lot of physical issues to still heal. Although now that desire isn't as strong as it was before (even if I'm still feeling like certain issues that are starting to show up would be helped by it). Maybe that strong desire to run was me wanting to run away like Shannon said. Still, hard to figure out how many loops you're supposed to do when I seem to need way more than recommended to overcome my resistance. I just wish I knew where all this resistance was coming from to begin with. I kind of want to run DMSI B like others have to see what effect it would have on me but my intuition is telling me I still need a lot more time on A before I'm ready for B.
And I'm still trying to figure out how this analysis helps. I keep hoping to try to ingrain in me the habit of listening to the sub and then forget about it so I don't think about the results too much because I know that can potentially create its own issues and resistance (example: I see others getting results, why aren't I getting results?). Kind of why I'm trying to minimize my time on the forum to a certain extent. Eh, I just hope this is somehow helpful for testing purposes and making DMSI/other future programs good enough that it'll work for me in a quicker manner and with less resistance.
I've been super horny the last few days which is weird for me. It's also causing me an increased desire to masturbate to relieve the horniness which is hard to resist as the horniness can reach distracting levels. I just get this feeling like I really need to fuck someone and can't get it out of my head. Makes it a bit harder to focus to do actual work (legal job requires a lot of mental focus and energy), leading further to me masturbating to relieve myself in the morning before going to work.
Still have feelings of tiredness, probably not enough sleep with mind so active but not the fatigue I was feeling the first week. Also might be because I awoke around midnight and was up for an hour and couldn't fall back asleep.
Trying to decide whether to switch to hybrid because it's more powerful or stick with masked. I know Shannon said in another thread he had 2 hypotheses about whether hybrid and the resistance indicating it's doing something is better or the heavy resistance means one should switch to masked. Considering the violent bodily reaction I had to MHS when I did a couple of days of hybrid, I have no idea. I also don't remember much progress with slightly earlier versions of DMSI when I was listening to hybrid. I think I'll stick with masked for now since it seems to be having some effect on me. Then again, I hope I'm getting some results from listening to 4 times the recommended number of loops.
Still have the desire to do a run of MHS afterward as I have a lot of physical issues to still heal. Although now that desire isn't as strong as it was before (even if I'm still feeling like certain issues that are starting to show up would be helped by it). Maybe that strong desire to run was me wanting to run away like Shannon said. Still, hard to figure out how many loops you're supposed to do when I seem to need way more than recommended to overcome my resistance. I just wish I knew where all this resistance was coming from to begin with. I kind of want to run DMSI B like others have to see what effect it would have on me but my intuition is telling me I still need a lot more time on A before I'm ready for B.
And I'm still trying to figure out how this analysis helps. I keep hoping to try to ingrain in me the habit of listening to the sub and then forget about it so I don't think about the results too much because I know that can potentially create its own issues and resistance (example: I see others getting results, why aren't I getting results?). Kind of why I'm trying to minimize my time on the forum to a certain extent. Eh, I just hope this is somehow helpful for testing purposes and making DMSI/other future programs good enough that it'll work for me in a quicker manner and with less resistance.
