06-30-2017, 09:56 AM
I wrote about 4 posts before this one thinking I was touching upon some insight into my musical aspirations. But then I realized it was all just a clever rationalization of fear.
Fear, it just causes me to settle. The what ifs. What if people don't like my music? Yeah, maybe I should just stick to a reality where I keep it to myself and enjoy it. More stupid stuff like, "Oh my music is too different, it won't fit in". Or "I'm happy just keeping it as a hobby, anything more than that and I'll just ruin my passion". All excuses. All fear based. Part of my problem is I'll take any exciting scenario or joyful one and try to figure out where it could go wrong or how it might not be as great as it sounds. It's like I shoot stuff down before I even do it thinking I'm saving myself, but really it's just fear ruining my life.
This is why I think DMSI will do me good. Anything that tackles fear is only going to improve my life. I know I have the power to make stuff happen, I just need to stop holding myself back by weaseling my way out of opportunities.
Fear, it just causes me to settle. The what ifs. What if people don't like my music? Yeah, maybe I should just stick to a reality where I keep it to myself and enjoy it. More stupid stuff like, "Oh my music is too different, it won't fit in". Or "I'm happy just keeping it as a hobby, anything more than that and I'll just ruin my passion". All excuses. All fear based. Part of my problem is I'll take any exciting scenario or joyful one and try to figure out where it could go wrong or how it might not be as great as it sounds. It's like I shoot stuff down before I even do it thinking I'm saving myself, but really it's just fear ruining my life.
This is why I think DMSI will do me good. Anything that tackles fear is only going to improve my life. I know I have the power to make stuff happen, I just need to stop holding myself back by weaseling my way out of opportunities.
