Verson B is kicking my ass. enormous anxiety/fears surfacing, derealisation and disconnection. drowing in fear, fml ;_; tired mixed with hints of euphoria and having these trigger responses is some strong mixed bag.
guess being adjusted to the new reality, litterally being lost and unrecognizing my environment, only to catch up later and realize it, is some serious freaky shit. my post is totally unhinged and facing fears was never so good hehe.
I would lie if I said I wasnt scared of going psychotic and unable to distinquish shit. tiptoeing on the edge. a flower is brewing underneath in noticing perfectly who suits, who isnt, whats borderline, red flag, whats drawing, whats not, reading in splitseconds, liek Am6 but more snipered. thinking back about Illumi's natural friend ( heads up to you bro ) and yes, this will be DMSi at work, to screen them just by reading BL.
Notice a trend which is a great DMSi development. opening people goes well 9/10, sometimes we vibe great only to die down immediately in attraction or something. no coincidence with my mixed upness. Oh well, pretty much feeling untouchable in a way. DMSi does well for me.
vanity through mortality the big flip for me. kicking off the pedestals one by one.
I want to sleep now. im losing consciousness and phase out at times, zoning out and shooting awake in terror feelings of being disorietated. facing those fears is empowering as heck. Women flock to me. lol.
Tired and out of it is the thing as of now, like being retraumatized, yet will not give up on version B just yet. my subconscuious still is about running B, so be it, I see the profit of this even if im totally overwhelmed at the time.
Oh well. *shrug* lmao
Edit: DMSi B is the shit, my presence will consume her whole, no holding back, if this removes, oh lord, slayyy that shit. I now have insight as to where itll lead me, the updates and upcoming days will be interesting for sure, merciless and mindblowing, many things are clicking and seeing the light of the power of DMSi as of now. removal of any brakes. this is it, in ways beyond me so to speak yet not bailing out, a "meant to be" vibe creation on nuclear proportion.
The turmoil seems to rest now, but its worth it.
guess being adjusted to the new reality, litterally being lost and unrecognizing my environment, only to catch up later and realize it, is some serious freaky shit. my post is totally unhinged and facing fears was never so good hehe.
I would lie if I said I wasnt scared of going psychotic and unable to distinquish shit. tiptoeing on the edge. a flower is brewing underneath in noticing perfectly who suits, who isnt, whats borderline, red flag, whats drawing, whats not, reading in splitseconds, liek Am6 but more snipered. thinking back about Illumi's natural friend ( heads up to you bro ) and yes, this will be DMSi at work, to screen them just by reading BL.
Notice a trend which is a great DMSi development. opening people goes well 9/10, sometimes we vibe great only to die down immediately in attraction or something. no coincidence with my mixed upness. Oh well, pretty much feeling untouchable in a way. DMSi does well for me.
vanity through mortality the big flip for me. kicking off the pedestals one by one.
I want to sleep now. im losing consciousness and phase out at times, zoning out and shooting awake in terror feelings of being disorietated. facing those fears is empowering as heck. Women flock to me. lol.
Tired and out of it is the thing as of now, like being retraumatized, yet will not give up on version B just yet. my subconscuious still is about running B, so be it, I see the profit of this even if im totally overwhelmed at the time.
Oh well. *shrug* lmao
Edit: DMSi B is the shit, my presence will consume her whole, no holding back, if this removes, oh lord, slayyy that shit. I now have insight as to where itll lead me, the updates and upcoming days will be interesting for sure, merciless and mindblowing, many things are clicking and seeing the light of the power of DMSi as of now. removal of any brakes. this is it, in ways beyond me so to speak yet not bailing out, a "meant to be" vibe creation on nuclear proportion.
The turmoil seems to rest now, but its worth it.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
