06-24-2017, 10:29 PM
I have had some issues with my docking speaker, I took a look at it and fixed it. Geez, it took some difficult work to get it done, but still did it nonetheless.
So I finally began listening to DMSI 3.1. A again last night, 2 loops. For some reason, I have no desire to increase the loop at all. Probably the most reason being, I find it inconvenient to run subs for a long time. If I increase, I might just do endless with flac file. However, I don't see that happening anytime soon.
I don't know if it is DMSI doing, but I noticed a few internal issues (not necessarily negative or positive) going on.
First, I am quite horny, and that I really want to fuck hot tight body girl with large tits (not saggy though) and a cute face. Man, just thinking about that is giving me quite a boner. LOL BTW, I masturbated (it's nearly been a week or more since the last time), and I ejaculated a huge load. I still had a strong morning wood this morning, and I don't think my sexual energy has decreased. Though this is the case, I would like to mention that it may not necessarily the DMSI (erection related) as I have been sorta like this for the last few weeks.
Second, probably related to the first point, I am having a strong thought of running AYP for the large breast lover. Here, I am also torn between the romantic sub and sexual sub. I want sex (much sex, passionate, sensual, spiritually awakening, soul connecting sex) at the same time I want romance. So much sex wanted, that I am somewhat willing to give up the romance part a bit, but one part of me is telling me that I would regret giving that up.
Third, I was watching a movie, and when I saw a slim actress, I was able to picture myself having more meaningful and longer lasting relationship with a girl with slim body, small to medium breast girl than large breast girl. I don't know why, but that was the case. Also, I feel that I may be preferring a slim girl with medium breast over a girl with large breast for longer term relationship. Again, not sure why, but that seems to be the case.
Fourth, I suppose because of the third one, I am even questioning whether to go with large breast lover, or just a lover, if going for AYP.
Fifth, I am questioning if it would be even worthwhile switching to AYPs as DMSI is much more advanced program than the current AYP. I'm thinking, well, get myself a gorgeous large breast lover (firm enough, but not too firm like bad fake boobs, but also soft enough that the feel's great) who is slim enough and who has great personality, and develop a meaningful and perhaps lasting loving relationship with the girl. (And of course, have mind blowing sex)
Sixth, At the same time, I am wondering if I don't necessarily want a multiple relationship or have sex with multiple girls, (just wanting one amazing girl) then I wonder if DMSI is even a good choice.
I suppose though it can be something I drive, as DMSI's goal is to develop maximum sexual irritability, which should help me get the relationship/girl I want and deserve. At the same time, I suppose that could make maintaining the relationship potentially difficult as it may induce jealousy and insecurity issue in the girl.
These are internal thoughts and feeling I had since I hopped on the DMSI 3.1 A again.
At the same time, I have a worry about DMSI run. My biggest concern/worry comes from a recognition of my biggest problem/obstacle. It is that I don't know how to meet people, where to meet people. I don't really have any interests that I can share with other people, nor that activity can align with doing activities (which can help me meet with people and hangout) that I genuinely enjoy doing. If it did, it is usually not great or lead to meeting high quality girls. Also, I don't really know how to form a relationship that turns into friendship or something more meaningful and intimate. (Applies for both genders.) Almost all the relationship I had ever since I left my country to study abroad, had some sort of purpose, which will either fall into academic related or business related. No hanging out type of stuff. Much of it is probably related to my high functioning autism.
Because of these problems, I am concerned/worried that DMSI may drive me crazy, nuts, restless, and even anxious. I am concerned/worried as DMSI will try to push me to get out there more, meet more people, and meet more girls. The problem? I genuinely don't know how to do that well, due to my disability. It's going to ask me to execute the stuff I don't know and that's what I am concerned about.
Enough of internal stuff, and let's get to external stuff.
I went outside and noticed that almost all the women I saw today had either medium or large breasts, and thanks to summer, I got to see many cleavages. (From revealing clothes to accidental ones.)
That's it for today, and let me see anything interesting coming up tomorrow.
So I finally began listening to DMSI 3.1. A again last night, 2 loops. For some reason, I have no desire to increase the loop at all. Probably the most reason being, I find it inconvenient to run subs for a long time. If I increase, I might just do endless with flac file. However, I don't see that happening anytime soon.
I don't know if it is DMSI doing, but I noticed a few internal issues (not necessarily negative or positive) going on.
First, I am quite horny, and that I really want to fuck hot tight body girl with large tits (not saggy though) and a cute face. Man, just thinking about that is giving me quite a boner. LOL BTW, I masturbated (it's nearly been a week or more since the last time), and I ejaculated a huge load. I still had a strong morning wood this morning, and I don't think my sexual energy has decreased. Though this is the case, I would like to mention that it may not necessarily the DMSI (erection related) as I have been sorta like this for the last few weeks.
Second, probably related to the first point, I am having a strong thought of running AYP for the large breast lover. Here, I am also torn between the romantic sub and sexual sub. I want sex (much sex, passionate, sensual, spiritually awakening, soul connecting sex) at the same time I want romance. So much sex wanted, that I am somewhat willing to give up the romance part a bit, but one part of me is telling me that I would regret giving that up.
Third, I was watching a movie, and when I saw a slim actress, I was able to picture myself having more meaningful and longer lasting relationship with a girl with slim body, small to medium breast girl than large breast girl. I don't know why, but that was the case. Also, I feel that I may be preferring a slim girl with medium breast over a girl with large breast for longer term relationship. Again, not sure why, but that seems to be the case.
Fourth, I suppose because of the third one, I am even questioning whether to go with large breast lover, or just a lover, if going for AYP.
Fifth, I am questioning if it would be even worthwhile switching to AYPs as DMSI is much more advanced program than the current AYP. I'm thinking, well, get myself a gorgeous large breast lover (firm enough, but not too firm like bad fake boobs, but also soft enough that the feel's great) who is slim enough and who has great personality, and develop a meaningful and perhaps lasting loving relationship with the girl. (And of course, have mind blowing sex)
Sixth, At the same time, I am wondering if I don't necessarily want a multiple relationship or have sex with multiple girls, (just wanting one amazing girl) then I wonder if DMSI is even a good choice.
I suppose though it can be something I drive, as DMSI's goal is to develop maximum sexual irritability, which should help me get the relationship/girl I want and deserve. At the same time, I suppose that could make maintaining the relationship potentially difficult as it may induce jealousy and insecurity issue in the girl.
These are internal thoughts and feeling I had since I hopped on the DMSI 3.1 A again.
At the same time, I have a worry about DMSI run. My biggest concern/worry comes from a recognition of my biggest problem/obstacle. It is that I don't know how to meet people, where to meet people. I don't really have any interests that I can share with other people, nor that activity can align with doing activities (which can help me meet with people and hangout) that I genuinely enjoy doing. If it did, it is usually not great or lead to meeting high quality girls. Also, I don't really know how to form a relationship that turns into friendship or something more meaningful and intimate. (Applies for both genders.) Almost all the relationship I had ever since I left my country to study abroad, had some sort of purpose, which will either fall into academic related or business related. No hanging out type of stuff. Much of it is probably related to my high functioning autism.
Because of these problems, I am concerned/worried that DMSI may drive me crazy, nuts, restless, and even anxious. I am concerned/worried as DMSI will try to push me to get out there more, meet more people, and meet more girls. The problem? I genuinely don't know how to do that well, due to my disability. It's going to ask me to execute the stuff I don't know and that's what I am concerned about.
Enough of internal stuff, and let's get to external stuff.
I went outside and noticed that almost all the women I saw today had either medium or large breasts, and thanks to summer, I got to see many cleavages. (From revealing clothes to accidental ones.)
That's it for today, and let me see anything interesting coming up tomorrow.
