The dream I remember last night was different than the fighting dreams.
There was more before but I remember hiding in a house, and there was a girl going around and cleaning. I was naked for some reason and I hid behind a curtain because I knew she was trying to catch me. She come in the room and looked around on the floor then come to where I was and started sucking me off, then I started having sex with her on the floor. Someone come and interrupted so I stopped, then we were on a bed and I went to start again and she's going "no, I don't do that, I only have sex with people that pay" and i'm getting pissed off and she's like "I'm just joking" then the dream ended.
I felt better today, but strange. I just didn't feel like going out anywhere and I thought "Is this a way of resisting by trying to stop me meeting girls?" and I ended up going to a market, I felt good and relaxed in myself.. but I didn't feel any need or feel like I really had any energy to 'reach out' and talk to girls, I just kind of didn't care and only felt like walking around quietly.
I seen a few people I know and talked to them but something just felt kind of off.
After a while I didn't even want to stay there nor did I want to go somewhere else. I started driving somewhere else but was like "Ah it's just the same old thing, there's no point."
And I actually felt like going home and working which I did.
Then after sitting at home for a while I started to feel sick, it's a familiar feeling I felt mostly on 3.0.1. I'm feeling a slight pressure/warmth around my eyes like yesterday but it's way less.
Another feeling is that B just feels 'wrong' compared to A.
There was more before but I remember hiding in a house, and there was a girl going around and cleaning. I was naked for some reason and I hid behind a curtain because I knew she was trying to catch me. She come in the room and looked around on the floor then come to where I was and started sucking me off, then I started having sex with her on the floor. Someone come and interrupted so I stopped, then we were on a bed and I went to start again and she's going "no, I don't do that, I only have sex with people that pay" and i'm getting pissed off and she's like "I'm just joking" then the dream ended.
I felt better today, but strange. I just didn't feel like going out anywhere and I thought "Is this a way of resisting by trying to stop me meeting girls?" and I ended up going to a market, I felt good and relaxed in myself.. but I didn't feel any need or feel like I really had any energy to 'reach out' and talk to girls, I just kind of didn't care and only felt like walking around quietly.
I seen a few people I know and talked to them but something just felt kind of off.
After a while I didn't even want to stay there nor did I want to go somewhere else. I started driving somewhere else but was like "Ah it's just the same old thing, there's no point."
And I actually felt like going home and working which I did.
Then after sitting at home for a while I started to feel sick, it's a familiar feeling I felt mostly on 3.0.1. I'm feeling a slight pressure/warmth around my eyes like yesterday but it's way less.
Another feeling is that B just feels 'wrong' compared to A.
