06-24-2017, 07:17 AM
Day 114
Long time no update for good reason. I went to one week long camp and I returned yesterday. I knew I won't be able to listen to DMSI on regular basis during this time, so I decided to do an experiment and switched to version B. I ended up listening to about 20-25 loops all that time and those are my results.
First of all I felt fine. I didn't feel too burdened and I was actually surprisingly light, given I don't enjoy trips like that very much. I was certainly more extroverted than usually and has quite good time all around.
As for women I didn't "score" anything, but there were some interesting IoIs, looks here and there etc. The most interesting one by the long shot was woman in her early 30s (which means quite older than me), divorcee with 3 kids. She was nice and shy, introverted and 9/10 on my scale. I swear she would glance at me every time we saw each other, but every time I made a move she would run away. First time, during the lunch, she was sitting alone on the table and she left as soon as I asked if I can join her. Second time, during the party, I was dancing with her and she run away from me when I was trying to do some dance moves with her :/
On older fronts not much has happened, my ex plays the game of "you don't understand me so I will not bother to reach out to you so you can understand me". I explained to her that if we don't talk and try to reach out to each other all I can do is guess what she wants and thinks, and my guess is that she's simply manipulating and playing me. I'm getting to tired of playing with her to be honest, it's simply stops being worth the bother. Sure, she is scared just as me, but at least I'm trying to reach out, and not just waiting for who knows what. There were some minor things with other DMSI girls, but nothing worth the mention.
All in all version B was fun for me, I will be running it a bit as I feel better on it, much less anxious and I even kinda sorta get some results. Also I have slight feeling something interesting might happen on Tuesday, so I wanna be ready for that if it happens
Long time no update for good reason. I went to one week long camp and I returned yesterday. I knew I won't be able to listen to DMSI on regular basis during this time, so I decided to do an experiment and switched to version B. I ended up listening to about 20-25 loops all that time and those are my results.
First of all I felt fine. I didn't feel too burdened and I was actually surprisingly light, given I don't enjoy trips like that very much. I was certainly more extroverted than usually and has quite good time all around.
As for women I didn't "score" anything, but there were some interesting IoIs, looks here and there etc. The most interesting one by the long shot was woman in her early 30s (which means quite older than me), divorcee with 3 kids. She was nice and shy, introverted and 9/10 on my scale. I swear she would glance at me every time we saw each other, but every time I made a move she would run away. First time, during the lunch, she was sitting alone on the table and she left as soon as I asked if I can join her. Second time, during the party, I was dancing with her and she run away from me when I was trying to do some dance moves with her :/
On older fronts not much has happened, my ex plays the game of "you don't understand me so I will not bother to reach out to you so you can understand me". I explained to her that if we don't talk and try to reach out to each other all I can do is guess what she wants and thinks, and my guess is that she's simply manipulating and playing me. I'm getting to tired of playing with her to be honest, it's simply stops being worth the bother. Sure, she is scared just as me, but at least I'm trying to reach out, and not just waiting for who knows what. There were some minor things with other DMSI girls, but nothing worth the mention.
All in all version B was fun for me, I will be running it a bit as I feel better on it, much less anxious and I even kinda sorta get some results. Also I have slight feeling something interesting might happen on Tuesday, so I wanna be ready for that if it happens
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
