06-22-2017, 05:47 PM
Quote:You will never find what you are looking for if you turn your back on it.
You will never find what you are looking for by looking outside yourself for what is within you.
It's such a hard thing to accept, I realize that i've come up across this realization several times but then drifted away from it and totally forgot about it for a time.
Quote:I changed to B in response to seeing that post by Shannon yesterday. I thought doing B was the easy way (not having to face some issues, but kinda trying to succeed while tolerating them), but that made it sound like A is the easy way (facing the same things, but in a more gentle way). I still have this feeling that A will likely address more issues (the whole mountain, not just what's directly in front of you), by I take that post to mean its designed to be so focused as to not go wandering off healing too much else. Healing others (gf) would be useful though; not sure if that part is disabled in B, or if it belongs to the aura scripting modules.
Anyway, I'm rooting for you!
Thanks man.
I thought the same actually, dissolving a mountain sounds better in the end because it's not there.. drilling through it you might get there but then it's still there to some extent.
And overcoming guilt, shame fear isn't in B.
Quote:Hey Ben, hope you figure all this stuff out. I know how it can feel like a wild goose chase at times trying to fix it all.
If I can make a suggestion, maybe you're already doing it, make a journal offline. These online journals are great for seeing growth and all, but I think a lot of the more intimate issues like abandonment need some privacy. I say this from experience, sometimes you just can't write what's really on your mind on this forum. Sometimes you just need that self healing validation with knowing that your thoughts and emotions won't be judged and the only way to guarantee that is to journal away from the public eye.
Thanks man, yeah I feel like i've been trying to deal with it for years and as I said I realize it then after a while it seems to go from my awareness then i'm back with the coping mechanism of trying to find it outside.
I have an offline journal and have since I got rid of my other journal. I've posted things here then deleted the post and put it in my offline journal. I used to share way too much and alot of things I don't feel like going into the same detail anymore on the forum.
I also write some things out on paper when things are challenging asking things like "What am I resisting?" "What am I fearing around DMSI?" and that is what ended up getting me to the realizations of the deeper issues that I keep coming up against.
