06-19-2017, 11:08 AM
(06-19-2017, 10:17 AM)kalmah0804 Wrote: Damn. You sound so much more emotionally solid than I am right now. I think your strong dedication to sticking with E2 for such a long time has really paid off for you. I can't wait to see where you go when you finish this refresher stage and continue to build yourself up.
And yeah, I use stereo speakers--I find I become too easily overwhelmed by headphone listening, even on very low volumes. I also dislike wearig headphones in general because I like to listen to subs while I sleep or during the day while I do other things like play videogames, watch movies, listen to music, or skype chat with faraway friends.
How many hours/loops do you listen a day?
If I can do it, you can too. I was bad. Really bad. E2 was the catalyst for the most growth in me. But to be honest a lot of this emotional stability feels like it came out of nowhere. Like it was building up over these past few months and stage 7 really finally nailed it in place. I can honestly say, which I never could before, that my intense negative thinking was all a delusion of my mind. Feeling broken, beyond fixing, doomed to a life where I just got by, not able to change, all of it was just a reality I created for myself. It's not the truth, once I accepted that it became easier to disregard it and stop falling into the lies.
You might be further ahead than you consciously perceive. This is something I struggle with. You've changed, but the old reality is still in your mind as the dominant truth so it's masking the newer you. It's like pressure building inside of a bottle. The only thing holding you back is the cap, the delusions, and once your release that cap you finally see what the subliminals have been doing.
I try to get the minimum of 8 hours at night. Then I listen as long as I can during the day if I'm home. So I probably get around 11 hours if I'm consistent. I try to push for as much as possible. I've found overexposure is rarely the problem for me. Quite the opposite actually. Whenever I don't get enough exposure that's when the resistance kicks into high gear and make things hell for me. It's like my mind sees a window for regaining control and makes a mad dash for it and from there things go south pretty fast.
