06-15-2017, 03:58 AM
Day 17 Update
nothing to report except some realisations.
Was in bed, woke and heard how someone I saw as a good friend was being a better friend to someone I do not approve of and thus felt negative.
This lead me to think about how I treat others and its based on guilt.
What I mean is that if I do wrong to anyone I get guilty, I feel guilt and don't want to hurt anyone or try to.
I can be a bitch of course but the point is that this made me realise that perhaps I have a lot of guilt inside that needs to be cleared.
I know that clearing guilt is in E2 and other subs, but i don't want to lose that guilt if it then makes me become a complete dick.
other than that, a friend that informed me of todays gossip passed his major exam today and that uplifted me and made me think if he can do it, then so can I, but I'm not doing it, I'm still thinking happy wishful thoughts but I'm not taking action!!!
nothing to report except some realisations.
Was in bed, woke and heard how someone I saw as a good friend was being a better friend to someone I do not approve of and thus felt negative.
This lead me to think about how I treat others and its based on guilt.
What I mean is that if I do wrong to anyone I get guilty, I feel guilt and don't want to hurt anyone or try to.
I can be a bitch of course but the point is that this made me realise that perhaps I have a lot of guilt inside that needs to be cleared.
I know that clearing guilt is in E2 and other subs, but i don't want to lose that guilt if it then makes me become a complete dick.
other than that, a friend that informed me of todays gossip passed his major exam today and that uplifted me and made me think if he can do it, then so can I, but I'm not doing it, I'm still thinking happy wishful thoughts but I'm not taking action!!!
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
