The saga continues: AM 6

[mat422]

Had a thought today. I'm trying to break into a career working with music. Just selling my own projects or producing for other people. Before I started AM6 this seemed like one of those impossible dreams. I'd say stuff like "the market is saturated, my music is no good, it's unstable and you can't make a decent living off it, etc." Just all fear based stuff. I'm realizing more and more the only reality that's out there is the one that's in my own head. So if I believe there's no market for my music, there won't be. But if I believe I'll find people to work with and put my focus there I'll find them. They say networking is the most important thing when it comes to finding work and in my experience these subs put you on a direct line to meet the people that will advance you further in your goals. The best way I can describe it is a lot of the time you're surrounded by chaos, but in that chaos is a little oasis where you can find your place and support your own ideas and goals. A lot of people get caught up in the chaos and miss their oasis. It's important not to discount anything, no matter how impossible it seems or how many people tell you "that's not how the world works". I've grown enough and learned enough to realize the truths some people carry around and use as life guidance aren't truths but more of guidelines they've created for themselves. So it's important to create your own reality instead of subscribing to one an authority told you about.

I know I have the capabilities, I just have to stop letting fear sidetrack me into the wrong path. One of the most messed up things I've struggled with is I discount things before even trying them. I think I know how it'll turn out, I think I'm being rational or smart, but in the end it's just fear and me finding a way to weasel my way out of actually even trying to do the thing I'm afraid of. This is fear at it's worst, when it pulls your strings behind the scenes and makes you think you know what you're talking about when you really don't. The insidious nature of it is that you likely won't catch that you're being manipulated, I didn't. Fear makes me do very dumb stuff, often stuff that I don't even realize was dumb until I look back on it and think to myself why did I do that? Of course when you grow it's so obvious and it's like the illusion is lifted, but when you're caught up in it it seems all too real.