Day 14 Update
Procrastination
I find myself slower than usual and this could be due to some antihistamines/allergies pills I have started to take to ward off some minor hay fever or seasonal allergies I thought I may be coming down with.
These pills cause drowsiness and so whenever I wake I do find myself completely drowsy and slow at times.
My sleep is terrible I'm not sleeping until 6am which causes me to wake at 2pm and exams are around 8am so I'm struggling right now.
Shannon has said something about MLS taking longer so I'm going to take his advice as to how to progress since I didn't expect to be on a 4G sub for longer than 2 weeks to be honest.
I forgot to add also that when I'm sat alone in my apartment, I'm not on the phone to anyone, no friends nobody, my social group here is kinda dead and I don't have anyone to really chat to, then I end up sometimes thinking about how I have been cruel or bad to my brother, or said things in the past to family I shouldn't have or didn't mean to.
Im not a bad person, but I have bad reactions like all and I regret upsetting or hurting them. I regret causing any internal low self esteem in my family too and I regret not being the son and becoming the son they expected me to and hoped I would. I have so much potential and I havent lived up to it and i always wanted to support my family and help them but instead they helped me and they supported me. I have been nothing but a liability and a burden and I don't know how or why I have but I even now while writing this seem to be going down a downward spiral of regret so ill stop but yeah this is all.
Procrastination
I find myself slower than usual and this could be due to some antihistamines/allergies pills I have started to take to ward off some minor hay fever or seasonal allergies I thought I may be coming down with.
These pills cause drowsiness and so whenever I wake I do find myself completely drowsy and slow at times.
My sleep is terrible I'm not sleeping until 6am which causes me to wake at 2pm and exams are around 8am so I'm struggling right now.
Shannon has said something about MLS taking longer so I'm going to take his advice as to how to progress since I didn't expect to be on a 4G sub for longer than 2 weeks to be honest.
I forgot to add also that when I'm sat alone in my apartment, I'm not on the phone to anyone, no friends nobody, my social group here is kinda dead and I don't have anyone to really chat to, then I end up sometimes thinking about how I have been cruel or bad to my brother, or said things in the past to family I shouldn't have or didn't mean to.
Im not a bad person, but I have bad reactions like all and I regret upsetting or hurting them. I regret causing any internal low self esteem in my family too and I regret not being the son and becoming the son they expected me to and hoped I would. I have so much potential and I havent lived up to it and i always wanted to support my family and help them but instead they helped me and they supported me. I have been nothing but a liability and a burden and I don't know how or why I have but I even now while writing this seem to be going down a downward spiral of regret so ill stop but yeah this is all.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
