(06-03-2017, 10:54 AM)Jake2015 Wrote: Procrastination, Fear and Avoidance.
Whereas yesterday I did some work which I forgot to mention, I did around 2hours yesterday I today have done none.
Whereas the 2hours were done due to fear of the approaching deadline for the exam....today there is fear and no action.
The fear is a feeling inside that results in inactivity.
Today I realised while wasting time with a friend who is a fellow procrastinator, that we both plan and dream of what we will do in the future, such as in the summer and then in our 3rd year, how we will do this and that, but in actuality we procrastinate today and we will tomorrow.
The biggest dream I have is that MLS 5.5G comes out, I start it and it not only kicks my procrastination to the ground but motivates me to study and not only motivates me but gives me hope and positivity and not only hope and positivity but gives me a memory where I can read far few times and remember far more and far longer....all while studying with intense focus and concentration.
My issues isn't studying its starting.
Don't move me and I will stay, move me and I will not stop...this is what I am, not Jake1015 but more like Super Inertia haha
somebody move me or as the mask would say....
Day 5 update continued....
I think on deeper level we all this that MLS-5.5G will solve all our issues related to studies, memory, focus, procrastination and motivation. I am not saying that it won't. But dreaming about MLS-5.5G only signifies that how badly you want to improve your cognitive issues. I had those same dreams when I was on my MHS-5.5G journey. It was at the end of 3-4 week that I started having dreams related to MLS-5.5G and Shannon telling me to use it.. . After day I started having other dream in which I started taking supplements to fix my brain and dreams in which I was productive and good student in school (which I never was as I was a looser due to ADHD).
Thing is that after I few days I realised that I really have to do something to fix my brain and can't be sitting on my ass and expect MLS-5.5G to fix all of my issues... Right now I am on OF-5G and I seriously don't care if if MLS-5.5G comes out or not. Subconsciously I don't wanna use MLS-5.5G right now cause with fear out of the window I see that I have nothing to loose as I have already lost what I could that is Time..But consciously I know MLS-5.5G can fix my issues..
What I am trying to say is that I seriously don't want to depend on anything.. People, subs etc.. All I wanna do is depend on myself. It's okay to ask for help but to depend on someone or something will only make you a weak person..
It's okay to use MLS-5.5G to help you fix ur issues but don't depend on it. How can u expect to grow and become independent if u keep depending on something and someone?
Right now I am trying to fix my focus issues, memory issues and procrastination issues all by myself. Won't say it's will fix all of it but it's just a start.
