06-06-2017, 06:10 PM
Headache came and went most of the morning and early afternoon, replaced by the unceasing mental/emotional exhaustion. Took a nap, again.
Having weird "power struggle" fights with my wife, albeit her hormone situation makes her ultra-sensitive. Made some headway, got her to admit that she's been extremely touchy. She apologized.
She then went to the store and came home with a beer we've been wanting to try. She even served me one - @ 4 in the afternoon. That was kinda weird. More weird is that I didn't even want a beer - at all - but I didn't say it, b/c I didn't want to attach any negative to her behavior in that moment. She got a "good gurl" from me, instead.
Went to eat at a fast-casual restaurant for dinner, where a quite pretty blonde looked at me, completely dumbfounded. It was blatant staring. I couldn't tell if it was good or bad, lol. I still felt tired, almost like a defeated feeling. I assume that was my subconscious feeling defeated. That's good.
I've had transitory thoughts of being extremely high-value, and then completely worthless, flitting back-and-forth - like a switch. I'm clearly at some kind of precipice. Also good.
We got home and the husband of MILF from across the street ran over with home grown strawberries they picked for us from their garden. His boy was with him, and he excitedly showed me his bike helmet that was covered with flame decals. But even though his son likes me, the way his dad looked at me was a mixture of awe and disgust (perhaps even fear?). I've spoken with him numerous times since moving in (almost 4 years ago), and while we've never been buddies, he's never looked at me like that. His wife really likes me. Maybe he is energy-sensitive and his mate guarding sixth sense went into overdrive. Dunno.
Random thoughts of the day:
"When people meet me, they should feel as if they've found a Million Dollar Bill. How can ya pass pickin' that up? You don't walk away from a Million Dollar Bill, y'all."
"I just want to cooperate and execute the script."
Having weird "power struggle" fights with my wife, albeit her hormone situation makes her ultra-sensitive. Made some headway, got her to admit that she's been extremely touchy. She apologized.
She then went to the store and came home with a beer we've been wanting to try. She even served me one - @ 4 in the afternoon. That was kinda weird. More weird is that I didn't even want a beer - at all - but I didn't say it, b/c I didn't want to attach any negative to her behavior in that moment. She got a "good gurl" from me, instead.
Went to eat at a fast-casual restaurant for dinner, where a quite pretty blonde looked at me, completely dumbfounded. It was blatant staring. I couldn't tell if it was good or bad, lol. I still felt tired, almost like a defeated feeling. I assume that was my subconscious feeling defeated. That's good.
I've had transitory thoughts of being extremely high-value, and then completely worthless, flitting back-and-forth - like a switch. I'm clearly at some kind of precipice. Also good.
We got home and the husband of MILF from across the street ran over with home grown strawberries they picked for us from their garden. His boy was with him, and he excitedly showed me his bike helmet that was covered with flame decals. But even though his son likes me, the way his dad looked at me was a mixture of awe and disgust (perhaps even fear?). I've spoken with him numerous times since moving in (almost 4 years ago), and while we've never been buddies, he's never looked at me like that. His wife really likes me. Maybe he is energy-sensitive and his mate guarding sixth sense went into overdrive. Dunno.
Random thoughts of the day:
"When people meet me, they should feel as if they've found a Million Dollar Bill. How can ya pass pickin' that up? You don't walk away from a Million Dollar Bill, y'all."
"I just want to cooperate and execute the script."
