Last night, 3 loops, all masked. All determined by dowsing.
Definitely into some healing and clearing of a different sort. I actually got the thought, "Fuck, I'm tired of running this sub with no results!" Lol, yeah, but that's bullshit - and I'm aware of it. The frustration level peaked as I watched my neighbor getting into her pool. I was on our deck, holding my daughter, and she was getting her float prepped to sun bathe. She had her legs spread about 3 feet apart and then bent over to adjust it before stepping into the water. It didn't leave much to the imagination - just 1/2 cm of fabric between my eyeballs and a vulva!
Irritation, anxiety, frustration, fatigue, and impatience characterized the day. Had other thoughts like, "It's my subconscious that's not doing what I want - which is part of me - so why am I doing this to myself!? And what can I do about it!?" Still, baseline happy. It's nice to be able to endure a range of negative emotions and have a sort of contentment at the back of your mind.
Definitely into some healing and clearing of a different sort. I actually got the thought, "Fuck, I'm tired of running this sub with no results!" Lol, yeah, but that's bullshit - and I'm aware of it. The frustration level peaked as I watched my neighbor getting into her pool. I was on our deck, holding my daughter, and she was getting her float prepped to sun bathe. She had her legs spread about 3 feet apart and then bent over to adjust it before stepping into the water. It didn't leave much to the imagination - just 1/2 cm of fabric between my eyeballs and a vulva!
Irritation, anxiety, frustration, fatigue, and impatience characterized the day. Had other thoughts like, "It's my subconscious that's not doing what I want - which is part of me - so why am I doing this to myself!? And what can I do about it!?" Still, baseline happy. It's nice to be able to endure a range of negative emotions and have a sort of contentment at the back of your mind.
