06-03-2017, 03:20 AM
Day 93 - 5 loops
Because I'll be spending this day at my parents working on my thesis I thought it would be good idea to write promised short summary of my DMSI 3.1 experiences thus far. My recent experiences with my ex gave the sub real test and so I think it is justified to do this now, after 3 months of exposure and week or so of multiple loops running.
Healing is strong. Remember that Alpha Male 6 brought me into this whole mess with my ex and DMSI 3.0 gave me quite bad depression (I might be to harsh, but those things were happening while these subs were running and they didn't help, that's what I mean). Now sure, I have some mild anxieties here and there but in the past I would be heartbroken in the same circumstances. I'm much stronger person now. I also forgave myself and others a lot.
External results are still weak. I did experienced the "bubble" recently when I came back from my ex's and not only did I see much more beautiful women than normal, they were also giving me IoIs on the streets. I wish I could make this repeatedly and control it but maybe this will come with more exposure.
Manifestations were interesting... My ex is obvious one, we made out but I really, really don't want much to be happening it this direction. Something might come out of this, sure, but I'd rather be building something new. And whenever I'm trying something new nothing comes out od this. For some reason my manifestations are notorious for finding themselves boyfriends :/
Tiredness is not as bad I'd think. I'm procrastinating hard, sure, but I don't feel overburdened, even with more loops. If anything they give me more strength and confidence. Especially now that I'm seeing some interesting results again.
Future seems bright. I tend to be impatient and angry that results don't come my way but still the truth is things are happening and with 3.2 they will be happening even quicker. I do have high hopes for 3.2 and 3.3 after that and this thought is probably the biggest reason why I don't worry too much about weak results I'm having thus far.
Because I'll be spending this day at my parents working on my thesis I thought it would be good idea to write promised short summary of my DMSI 3.1 experiences thus far. My recent experiences with my ex gave the sub real test and so I think it is justified to do this now, after 3 months of exposure and week or so of multiple loops running.
Healing is strong. Remember that Alpha Male 6 brought me into this whole mess with my ex and DMSI 3.0 gave me quite bad depression (I might be to harsh, but those things were happening while these subs were running and they didn't help, that's what I mean). Now sure, I have some mild anxieties here and there but in the past I would be heartbroken in the same circumstances. I'm much stronger person now. I also forgave myself and others a lot.
External results are still weak. I did experienced the "bubble" recently when I came back from my ex's and not only did I see much more beautiful women than normal, they were also giving me IoIs on the streets. I wish I could make this repeatedly and control it but maybe this will come with more exposure.
Manifestations were interesting... My ex is obvious one, we made out but I really, really don't want much to be happening it this direction. Something might come out of this, sure, but I'd rather be building something new. And whenever I'm trying something new nothing comes out od this. For some reason my manifestations are notorious for finding themselves boyfriends :/
Tiredness is not as bad I'd think. I'm procrastinating hard, sure, but I don't feel overburdened, even with more loops. If anything they give me more strength and confidence. Especially now that I'm seeing some interesting results again.
Future seems bright. I tend to be impatient and angry that results don't come my way but still the truth is things are happening and with 3.2 they will be happening even quicker. I do have high hopes for 3.2 and 3.3 after that and this thought is probably the biggest reason why I don't worry too much about weak results I'm having thus far.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
