5 loops of Version A won last night.
Started writing a post this morning, got interrupted, now I don't want to finish it.
Here's the gist:
The switch back to A has sparked a few fights with my wife. It has also kicked in affected side forgiveness. Cool.
Running into women from the last time I ran A that I haven't seen on B.
Still having trouble dealing with disappointment when things don't go how I was expecting, as well as the intensity of my reaction. I still anger easily, and allow my anger to escalate when feeling provoked. Other people have issues with ED, porn, or whatever they're saying they'd like the program to deal with. This is my issue.
Remembered a few dreams:
One was a vacation with a bunch of crazy, adrenaline rush craving people. I was expected to get into a military airplane that would take off and fly vertically up a mountainside until it stalled (with the back open the whole time), while we all stood in the plane trying not to fall out, and then allow the plane to fall backwards toward the earth - which I was assured would not crash. I was fucking terrified. I've had a fear of flying since age 12 or so (that's slowly been getting better).
The next dream I was working out in a gym, and men were staring at me wherever I went, like they were trying to learn something from watching me.
Started writing a post this morning, got interrupted, now I don't want to finish it.
Here's the gist:
The switch back to A has sparked a few fights with my wife. It has also kicked in affected side forgiveness. Cool.
Running into women from the last time I ran A that I haven't seen on B.
Still having trouble dealing with disappointment when things don't go how I was expecting, as well as the intensity of my reaction. I still anger easily, and allow my anger to escalate when feeling provoked. Other people have issues with ED, porn, or whatever they're saying they'd like the program to deal with. This is my issue.
Remembered a few dreams:
One was a vacation with a bunch of crazy, adrenaline rush craving people. I was expected to get into a military airplane that would take off and fly vertically up a mountainside until it stalled (with the back open the whole time), while we all stood in the plane trying not to fall out, and then allow the plane to fall backwards toward the earth - which I was assured would not crash. I was fucking terrified. I've had a fear of flying since age 12 or so (that's slowly been getting better).
The next dream I was working out in a gym, and men were staring at me wherever I went, like they were trying to learn something from watching me.
