05-28-2017, 12:05 AM
Thanks Shannon! I was actually thinking about some of the things you brought up today...Things are really getting, well, for lack of a better word, synergistic.
DAY 2-
Did the usual two loops, ultrasonic as usual with various music playing in the background. I didn't get any physical, mental, or emotional reaction from the loops while listening. After, though, that was a different story. I felt MANIC and high-energy afterwards with an enthusiasm I haven't felt in...Well, years! I was bobbing my head and singing in the shower, rhyming, and just generally enjoying myself.
I wish I could have gone out and gotten into some trouble but, it was a workday, so no dice since my shifts are pretty long. Once I got at work I noticed a shift in everyone's demeanor towards me, it was all smiles and laughter. A couple of friends of mine showed up at the restaurant; one of which immediately gave me a bunch of IOI's after I complimented her dress. She's a bigger girl and not my type but while I was working, she kept eyeballing me and twirling her hair. So far so good but, I think she's had a thing for me for a while. It used to make me uncomfortable when I thought she was flirting but today, I was just like "Enjoy the show, babe!"
Things got even more interesting with another girl I work with. She has, quite possibly, the greatest ass in the world and it doesn't hurt that she loves short dresses when it's hot (which it was). We talked during break about martial arts and such, and she's interested in trying Systema out, which I told her she would love. She then told me a story about living near a big naval academy and how rowdy the students would get. She said, "I thought I was gonna get fucked!" It was the way she said it, the way her eyes locked on mine...
WELL OKAY THEN!!!
She's leaving our workplace soon though, and happened to mention she's going to be unemployed for a short while with nothing to do...Yep, I'm definitely going to take a swing at that butt.
Later in the evening, I'm busy cleaning out my station and getting things shut down for the night when I get the urge to do a deep clean of our cooler. So there I am, reaching deep into this cooler as I'm scrubbing it out, I turn and there is our cute and bubbly bartender crouched down to the point that she was staring directly at my butt. Her eyes are wide and she starts the whole "OH don't mind me, just cleaning...stuff...hahaha!" Our stations are right next to each other since it's an open kitchen.
I had a good chuckle and thought nothing of it (maybe I'm imagining things) but she then stayed and hung out while me and the other guys were cleaning, staring at me the whole time. She NEVER does this. She doesn't hang out at length or dawdle, very much a "go to work, go home" type of gal. Clear fixation body language. It was nice but, I'm not going to read too much into any workplace IOIs. Not saying I wouldn't complain or make something happen if an opportunity presented itself, I'm just going to let things happen naturally and go with it.
I did come to some interesting ideas though. Shannon mentioned that I was really open to the program and I have always been known as a bit of a gullible or sensitive guy. I wear my heart on my sleeve and used to take it as a negative that I wasn't as savvy or calculating as other people. I fall in love hard, hate hard, and feel hard. Giggity.
I also realized that a supplement that I take has a LOT of caffeine in it (albeit, from green tea but still) and I've been trying to quit smoking cigarettes as well...I'm going to switch to a low nicotine vape pen to ween myself off of the stuff permanently. As for the supplement, I can find a replacement somewhere. As for the booze, everyone at work looked at me like I was from outer space when I said I wasn't drinking anytime soon, lol.
Another interesting note is my lack of drive to go to the gym, which I think was out of body image/attractiveness issues; or to quote Roger from Family Guy "Those abs look angry..." I still want to go workout but I'm content to give my body some rest as I was pushing myself WAYYY too hard in the gym. Don't get me wrong, I love the gym but, having taken some time off, all the aches, pains, and soreness from all that work are kicking in. I'll be back on the weights on Monday but, for now, I'm going to take the physical exertion slow.
Also, biggest epiphany of the day: I realized that attraction has more to do with "energy" than anything else. It's something between a vibe, body language, smell, aura, and all that and more. Some people are more in tune with it than others and thus they get more sex and female attention than the average guy. I started reading a book called The Aiki Singularity: Trans-formative Power and it talks about Qi and Energy and how to harness it. It couldn't hurt to test out my energy theories while I'm doing this subliminal, as there are exercises and drills to help increase one's internal energy for a variety of tasks and goals. I'm going to see if I can "feed" the program so to speak. I'll continue loops as normal and read up on this energy stuff a bit more while I play around with the sniper modules. If all goes well, I'll later see if I can amplify the modules and programming.
I feel wiped though, more so than yesterday. I did remember to eat but it's weird...I feel like I'm losing weight anyway, despite pigging out all day today. I still VERY much would like to smoke some herb but I've set a goal for myself instead; I won't take a toke until I've finished side A AND gotten at least five lay reports. Motivation baby!!!
Music of the Day: Keith Ape x Ski Mask TheSlumpGod - DR. EGGMAN
DAY 2-
Did the usual two loops, ultrasonic as usual with various music playing in the background. I didn't get any physical, mental, or emotional reaction from the loops while listening. After, though, that was a different story. I felt MANIC and high-energy afterwards with an enthusiasm I haven't felt in...Well, years! I was bobbing my head and singing in the shower, rhyming, and just generally enjoying myself.
I wish I could have gone out and gotten into some trouble but, it was a workday, so no dice since my shifts are pretty long. Once I got at work I noticed a shift in everyone's demeanor towards me, it was all smiles and laughter. A couple of friends of mine showed up at the restaurant; one of which immediately gave me a bunch of IOI's after I complimented her dress. She's a bigger girl and not my type but while I was working, she kept eyeballing me and twirling her hair. So far so good but, I think she's had a thing for me for a while. It used to make me uncomfortable when I thought she was flirting but today, I was just like "Enjoy the show, babe!"
Things got even more interesting with another girl I work with. She has, quite possibly, the greatest ass in the world and it doesn't hurt that she loves short dresses when it's hot (which it was). We talked during break about martial arts and such, and she's interested in trying Systema out, which I told her she would love. She then told me a story about living near a big naval academy and how rowdy the students would get. She said, "I thought I was gonna get fucked!" It was the way she said it, the way her eyes locked on mine...
WELL OKAY THEN!!!
She's leaving our workplace soon though, and happened to mention she's going to be unemployed for a short while with nothing to do...Yep, I'm definitely going to take a swing at that butt.
Later in the evening, I'm busy cleaning out my station and getting things shut down for the night when I get the urge to do a deep clean of our cooler. So there I am, reaching deep into this cooler as I'm scrubbing it out, I turn and there is our cute and bubbly bartender crouched down to the point that she was staring directly at my butt. Her eyes are wide and she starts the whole "OH don't mind me, just cleaning...stuff...hahaha!" Our stations are right next to each other since it's an open kitchen.
I had a good chuckle and thought nothing of it (maybe I'm imagining things) but she then stayed and hung out while me and the other guys were cleaning, staring at me the whole time. She NEVER does this. She doesn't hang out at length or dawdle, very much a "go to work, go home" type of gal. Clear fixation body language. It was nice but, I'm not going to read too much into any workplace IOIs. Not saying I wouldn't complain or make something happen if an opportunity presented itself, I'm just going to let things happen naturally and go with it.
I did come to some interesting ideas though. Shannon mentioned that I was really open to the program and I have always been known as a bit of a gullible or sensitive guy. I wear my heart on my sleeve and used to take it as a negative that I wasn't as savvy or calculating as other people. I fall in love hard, hate hard, and feel hard. Giggity.
I also realized that a supplement that I take has a LOT of caffeine in it (albeit, from green tea but still) and I've been trying to quit smoking cigarettes as well...I'm going to switch to a low nicotine vape pen to ween myself off of the stuff permanently. As for the supplement, I can find a replacement somewhere. As for the booze, everyone at work looked at me like I was from outer space when I said I wasn't drinking anytime soon, lol.
Another interesting note is my lack of drive to go to the gym, which I think was out of body image/attractiveness issues; or to quote Roger from Family Guy "Those abs look angry..." I still want to go workout but I'm content to give my body some rest as I was pushing myself WAYYY too hard in the gym. Don't get me wrong, I love the gym but, having taken some time off, all the aches, pains, and soreness from all that work are kicking in. I'll be back on the weights on Monday but, for now, I'm going to take the physical exertion slow.
Also, biggest epiphany of the day: I realized that attraction has more to do with "energy" than anything else. It's something between a vibe, body language, smell, aura, and all that and more. Some people are more in tune with it than others and thus they get more sex and female attention than the average guy. I started reading a book called The Aiki Singularity: Trans-formative Power and it talks about Qi and Energy and how to harness it. It couldn't hurt to test out my energy theories while I'm doing this subliminal, as there are exercises and drills to help increase one's internal energy for a variety of tasks and goals. I'm going to see if I can "feed" the program so to speak. I'll continue loops as normal and read up on this energy stuff a bit more while I play around with the sniper modules. If all goes well, I'll later see if I can amplify the modules and programming.
I feel wiped though, more so than yesterday. I did remember to eat but it's weird...I feel like I'm losing weight anyway, despite pigging out all day today. I still VERY much would like to smoke some herb but I've set a goal for myself instead; I won't take a toke until I've finished side A AND gotten at least five lay reports. Motivation baby!!!
Music of the Day: Keith Ape x Ski Mask TheSlumpGod - DR. EGGMAN
I aim to misbehave.
