Mystic Pymp on DMSI 2.4→2.5→3.0.1A→3.1A/B→3.2A/B→3.3D→3.3.1D

[Mystic Pymp]

Your ex's spirit animal isn't attacking you. A raven attacked you. Keep your head clear man. Could happen to anyone.

True. Still I'd rather take note of strange coincidences rather than dismiss them.

Day 84 - 5 loops

Number of days grows so large it's harder and harder for me to make sure I make the count right 12 weeks is helluva long time and an interesting ride so far.

Last night I was trying out listening to more loops of version A. Because my daily schedule is shaky I decided to do it at night, with my headphones on using hybrid. I woke up in the middle of the night right after 5th loop, stopped listening and went to sleep again. Quality of sleep was low, it was quite shallow and I was waking up a lot. I had lots of dreams as well.

When I woke up I was heavy and tired but I felt much less anxiety than on most days. If anything I felt more bold for first part of the day. I found myself thinking a lot about my sweetheart which was surprising for two reasons. One is that I tend not do think much about her. Second is something similar happened to me when I tried single loop of DMSI 3.1B this one time (I never mentioned it in this journal). So... there might be a pattern here.

In fact the only dream I remember was about her. She was this cute, almost cartoonish character with almost no hands and legs but huge butt and tits. There was nothing sexual in that dream though. Also lots of false awakenings and stuff like that, very fun to experience but nothing substantial to talk about.

Last but not least, and I think important in context of larger amount of loops, I think I might had manifestation and I blew it. In this event I was in there was a band and this sweet little girl was singing in the choir. She caught my attention immediately and after the whole thing during the banquet she was there, talking to other band members. I had no idea how to approach her so I just gave in. It's the first time I feel shame for not taking action in a long time. I guess I might try reaching her out somehow, we'll see. Maybe I will let her know she has a fan now