05-20-2017, 12:19 PM
Day 79
Strange day, anxiety extremely high for no good apparent reason. Been trying to ease it somehow but to no avail. I feel almost crying inside, it's that bad. Gotta wait through it, tomorrow's gonna be busy so I won't have time for anxiety then.
Heard people complaining about gaining weight so these are my two cents on that. This months I lost 3kg. I'm lightest I've been since Christmas and only 2.5kg to go to my all-time record (or at least during my adult life). I'm not doing that much to accomplish, no extra exercises or strict diet. The only thing I noticed is that some days I eat very little while doing my usual walks and runs. Mind though that in the past no matter how much walking and running I would do I was not losing weight. And I was never hungering myself this past months, simply my appetite was smaller than usual.
One more note on my ex. I'm not sure if she's playing me or not (so far I didn't caught her on lying so probably not) but after I asked her if she still has my shirt I left once at her place she said yes. What's more it's apparently one of few things she kept from that time and she wore it this week. Mind you I've never seen her in man's shirt other than my own so she's not type to wear them at all. If she's not lying it means she's still quite emotional about me, more so than I am about her for sure.
Strange day, anxiety extremely high for no good apparent reason. Been trying to ease it somehow but to no avail. I feel almost crying inside, it's that bad. Gotta wait through it, tomorrow's gonna be busy so I won't have time for anxiety then.
Heard people complaining about gaining weight so these are my two cents on that. This months I lost 3kg. I'm lightest I've been since Christmas and only 2.5kg to go to my all-time record (or at least during my adult life). I'm not doing that much to accomplish, no extra exercises or strict diet. The only thing I noticed is that some days I eat very little while doing my usual walks and runs. Mind though that in the past no matter how much walking and running I would do I was not losing weight. And I was never hungering myself this past months, simply my appetite was smaller than usual.
One more note on my ex. I'm not sure if she's playing me or not (so far I didn't caught her on lying so probably not) but after I asked her if she still has my shirt I left once at her place she said yes. What's more it's apparently one of few things she kept from that time and she wore it this week. Mind you I've never seen her in man's shirt other than my own so she's not type to wear them at all. If she's not lying it means she's still quite emotional about me, more so than I am about her for sure.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
