05-19-2017, 08:42 AM
The biggest issues I've had running these subs in general is that what feels good isn't always right. Relaxing, taking it easy, not putting so much pressure on myself have all been subtle ways of avoiding responsibility by my subconscious. Relaxation is necessary, but too much and it just becomes an escape. I haven't managed to nail a good balance yet. It seems I'm either always pushing too hard and burning out or abandoning responsibilities and thinking the mental break is good for me. There's this middle ground where I'm pushing forward, but at the same time I know when to let up. But balancing that out is incredibly difficult for me.
As I look back into my past I see that I had very extreme forms of fear. Before I even ran subs most days I'd hole up in my room and block out the world or just go to sleep. I couldn't consciously acknowledge that I was afraid, most of all I wouldn't admit it because I perceived it as a huge weakness and me being a massive loser. So it was always under the guise of being tired or stressed, never really acknowledging how I really felt underneath it all.
With that being said I realize I wanted everything to be smooth and easy running AM6. But what I failed to realize is that the changes can't take place unless my habits change. I frequently hold onto old habits and wait for the subliminal to work, instead of changing those habits into what I want. So when I procrastinated all the time I'd just get upset at how I procrastinated and wait until the sub fixed it instead of figuring out why I'm procrastinating or just doing what I needed to do. I often feel that actually knowing more about the subconscious and how it operates is a detriment to the result of these subliminals because there is a certain expectation that's unrealistic in how the goals are brought about. You have to know when to say screw it and stop analyzing yourself so deeply and just take action instead because after a certain point all that analyzing can dig you into a deeper hole.
As I look back into my past I see that I had very extreme forms of fear. Before I even ran subs most days I'd hole up in my room and block out the world or just go to sleep. I couldn't consciously acknowledge that I was afraid, most of all I wouldn't admit it because I perceived it as a huge weakness and me being a massive loser. So it was always under the guise of being tired or stressed, never really acknowledging how I really felt underneath it all.
With that being said I realize I wanted everything to be smooth and easy running AM6. But what I failed to realize is that the changes can't take place unless my habits change. I frequently hold onto old habits and wait for the subliminal to work, instead of changing those habits into what I want. So when I procrastinated all the time I'd just get upset at how I procrastinated and wait until the sub fixed it instead of figuring out why I'm procrastinating or just doing what I needed to do. I often feel that actually knowing more about the subconscious and how it operates is a detriment to the result of these subliminals because there is a certain expectation that's unrealistic in how the goals are brought about. You have to know when to say screw it and stop analyzing yourself so deeply and just take action instead because after a certain point all that analyzing can dig you into a deeper hole.
