05-19-2017, 04:10 AM
Update again. Yesterday I woke up very refreshed. My sleep was very good which surprised me because I expected negative effects on my sleep with B. However, I noticed that I have become somehow very neutral. Like I don't see any reactions neither attracting nor repelling.
Have been on a party later where the neutral feeling continued. Didn't notice any IOI's the way I am used to get with DMSI, just a few weak ones like pointing the foot toward me but only for a short time span. Also women which passed by made sure to not touch me if even possible, this only changed after most people were drunk there. Interesting enough I didn't feel some sort of social anxiety, I simply felt indifferent. Later after I had also drunk some alcohol I became very talkative. I have been talking to a bunch of girls and also to a few guys. They seem comfortable but no signs of sexual attraction from the girls, just some sort of comfort. One of them seemed to be a bit more interested than the other ones. We have been talking a bit and then she mentioned her (female) friend. The moment I said something that pretty much indicated that I have some interest in her friend. Don't know why I did this, it wasn't my intention to do something like that, it was simply stupid. However, not surprising that she left me alone after that. I saw her later leaving with another guy. Not saying I would have been the guy if I didn't do that but who knows.
So DMSI must have done some inner work because I have never been that talkative with people, even with alcohol. But there is some inhibition which prevents to do this when I didn't have a drink. Makes me think on Raj from Big Bang Theory right now, lol. Another interesting thing is that I am more motivated to do my study stuff. Don't know why as it has nothing to do with DMSI. Maybe P6 from MLS already working from the future (?). So far for now.
Have been on a party later where the neutral feeling continued. Didn't notice any IOI's the way I am used to get with DMSI, just a few weak ones like pointing the foot toward me but only for a short time span. Also women which passed by made sure to not touch me if even possible, this only changed after most people were drunk there. Interesting enough I didn't feel some sort of social anxiety, I simply felt indifferent. Later after I had also drunk some alcohol I became very talkative. I have been talking to a bunch of girls and also to a few guys. They seem comfortable but no signs of sexual attraction from the girls, just some sort of comfort. One of them seemed to be a bit more interested than the other ones. We have been talking a bit and then she mentioned her (female) friend. The moment I said something that pretty much indicated that I have some interest in her friend. Don't know why I did this, it wasn't my intention to do something like that, it was simply stupid. However, not surprising that she left me alone after that. I saw her later leaving with another guy. Not saying I would have been the guy if I didn't do that but who knows.
So DMSI must have done some inner work because I have never been that talkative with people, even with alcohol. But there is some inhibition which prevents to do this when I didn't have a drink. Makes me think on Raj from Big Bang Theory right now, lol. Another interesting thing is that I am more motivated to do my study stuff. Don't know why as it has nothing to do with DMSI. Maybe P6 from MLS already working from the future (?). So far for now.
In theory, theory and practice are the same. In practice, they are not.
