05-15-2017, 02:12 AM
I am pleased with the internal changes for myself too. It's why I started running DMSI in the first place. I wanted to get out of my own head, stop using fantasy/porn/non-nudes for gratification, stop feeling needy around women etc. And some of that has changed, hopefully permanently.
It's slightly crazy how insecure I sometimes feel socially, especially at work. I'm decent looking, affable, confident, I run classes without any worries, I manage people and help with life coaching and personal training on a daily basis; I have no reason to feel insecure. It's still related to childhood though - never quite being one of the popular kids and feeling like a lesser person because of it.
I think that is the root of my need to feel special with women. It's not about sexual conquest for me, it's about being important to them and significant in their lives. Somehow that has become confusingly conflated with sexual stuff. I'm not 100% sure what kind of validation I am seeking there.
It's slightly crazy how insecure I sometimes feel socially, especially at work. I'm decent looking, affable, confident, I run classes without any worries, I manage people and help with life coaching and personal training on a daily basis; I have no reason to feel insecure. It's still related to childhood though - never quite being one of the popular kids and feeling like a lesser person because of it.
I think that is the root of my need to feel special with women. It's not about sexual conquest for me, it's about being important to them and significant in their lives. Somehow that has become confusingly conflated with sexual stuff. I'm not 100% sure what kind of validation I am seeking there.
Fear Is The Mind-killer
