Had a bit of obsession with the receptionist as we went out last night. She was the only person I was really looking forward to spending time with. Of course, she actually spent the evening with her girl friends and there was no way I was going to follow her round.
So I actually saw very little of her. My inner child had a tantrum that I wasn't the special one she chose to spend time with.
DMSI wasn't working, and I was very much stuck in my own head for the first half of the evening. Once we got to a club though, I managed to move on and just dance and have some fun. You know that you're doing well when your tracker tells you that you have done 12,000 steps by 3:30am.
I have realised that I create fantasies around unavailable women, like my celeb client and the receptionist, and focus my energy on those. I get frustrated when nothing materialises, even though I'm not sure I actually want it to.
This is how I have run the last 20 years of my life. Now I don't use porn or other non nude images, I guess my subconscious is looking for alternative fantasy routes.
So I actually saw very little of her. My inner child had a tantrum that I wasn't the special one she chose to spend time with.
DMSI wasn't working, and I was very much stuck in my own head for the first half of the evening. Once we got to a club though, I managed to move on and just dance and have some fun. You know that you're doing well when your tracker tells you that you have done 12,000 steps by 3:30am.
I have realised that I create fantasies around unavailable women, like my celeb client and the receptionist, and focus my energy on those. I get frustrated when nothing materialises, even though I'm not sure I actually want it to.
This is how I have run the last 20 years of my life. Now I don't use porn or other non nude images, I guess my subconscious is looking for alternative fantasy routes.
Fear Is The Mind-killer
