05-10-2017, 05:40 PM
It is now abundantly clear to me that the source of all of my resistance is denial. I have constructed a lot of beliefs to help protect my fragile ego. If my beliefs were to change I would need to face a lot of negative emotions as I face the truth. I fight this tooth and nail because it fucking hurts to face the truth.
To illustrate with an example, I protect myself from rejection through denial. When women are not interested in me I construct ambiguity where there is none through the belief that women sometimes play hard to get when they're actually interested. Complete self-delusion to protect myself from the reality that that woman finds me undesirable because the truth that women find me undesirable is too hard for my ego to bear.
I don't envy Shannon in helping us move past our ego-protection denial.
To illustrate with an example, I protect myself from rejection through denial. When women are not interested in me I construct ambiguity where there is none through the belief that women sometimes play hard to get when they're actually interested. Complete self-delusion to protect myself from the reality that that woman finds me undesirable because the truth that women find me undesirable is too hard for my ego to bear.
I don't envy Shannon in helping us move past our ego-protection denial.
