05-10-2017, 03:58 PM
Day 69
69, hihihihihi
Jokes aside I thought I would post an update while I'm in the middle of some interesting stuff going on. Nothing major or mind blowing to say but worth mentioning anyway.
First, my ex is testing me. Gently, sure, but I know her. And she knows me more than anyone else. In the past when we would argue cause she did something to hurt I would sooner or later forgive her, given enough time. So now she takes couple of days between texts and tests me if I want to reach out to her of just replying out of "I want to be OK towards her" kind of feeling. So far I gave her no attention whatsoever and I think this will continue.
My snipee is distant and doesn't talk with me much. I don't read much into this as she has a lot of studying on her head right now. I will become more concerned if this continues for a week or so though. Other than that, while I still admire her, I don't feel in love with her. I found myself thinking today that if I were to look for a serious girlfriend I would look for someone like her, as kind of reference because I feel so much trust and kindness in her.
Lastly yesterday, today (and probably tomorrow) I met (will meet) first of my DMSI girls on some social events. She as well as my friend very strongly pointed out how she broke with her boyfriend (whom she met after I started texting with her) and today my friend was laughing how he tries to sell me to her. And while she is angel-like beautiful I am quite disheartened towards her. To recap we stopped texting after she found herself a boyfriend and apparently texting with me would not be fair towards him. I don't really want to text with her again after that. What's more she plays kind of nice towards me while I was ignoring her and paying her as little mind as possible. She's not worth it in my eyes right now.
What will I do if she texts me? I don't know honestly. I would simply go with the autopilot and see where it leads. "I'll win but never fight, that's the art of war" after all. I would let her chase me and prove me she's worth something, pride will not get me laid. So perhaps prepare for an interesting update soon
69, hihihihihi
Jokes aside I thought I would post an update while I'm in the middle of some interesting stuff going on. Nothing major or mind blowing to say but worth mentioning anyway.
First, my ex is testing me. Gently, sure, but I know her. And she knows me more than anyone else. In the past when we would argue cause she did something to hurt I would sooner or later forgive her, given enough time. So now she takes couple of days between texts and tests me if I want to reach out to her of just replying out of "I want to be OK towards her" kind of feeling. So far I gave her no attention whatsoever and I think this will continue.
My snipee is distant and doesn't talk with me much. I don't read much into this as she has a lot of studying on her head right now. I will become more concerned if this continues for a week or so though. Other than that, while I still admire her, I don't feel in love with her. I found myself thinking today that if I were to look for a serious girlfriend I would look for someone like her, as kind of reference because I feel so much trust and kindness in her.
Lastly yesterday, today (and probably tomorrow) I met (will meet) first of my DMSI girls on some social events. She as well as my friend very strongly pointed out how she broke with her boyfriend (whom she met after I started texting with her) and today my friend was laughing how he tries to sell me to her. And while she is angel-like beautiful I am quite disheartened towards her. To recap we stopped texting after she found herself a boyfriend and apparently texting with me would not be fair towards him. I don't really want to text with her again after that. What's more she plays kind of nice towards me while I was ignoring her and paying her as little mind as possible. She's not worth it in my eyes right now.
What will I do if she texts me? I don't know honestly. I would simply go with the autopilot and see where it leads. "I'll win but never fight, that's the art of war" after all. I would let her chase me and prove me she's worth something, pride will not get me laid. So perhaps prepare for an interesting update soon
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
