05-09-2017, 09:46 AM
Woke up early with motivation to get up, can't remember the last time this ever happened. Been desperate to go to the gym today - something I've been avoiding since I've not wanted to face how far I've slipped from having a respectable gym routine and pushing a respectable level of weight to feeling like a gym noob again.
I said I'm feeling much more aggressive - well going to the gym was a good reality check since the guys there could meet mere aggression with real force. My gym is uniquely filled with east Europeans and Russians who are huge, intimidating, gym obsessed and, well from what I've always thought, not kindly disposed to darker skinned folk such as myself. When I used to go to this gym before I had a trainer who was hyper alpha and kind of intimidated people off of machines, and when I've been alone guys have attempted that with me. This time was a totally different experience , guys were actually being polite, almost humble. Only one data point though so can't say this is the status quo now because of DMSI.
I said I'm feeling much more aggressive - well going to the gym was a good reality check since the guys there could meet mere aggression with real force. My gym is uniquely filled with east Europeans and Russians who are huge, intimidating, gym obsessed and, well from what I've always thought, not kindly disposed to darker skinned folk such as myself. When I used to go to this gym before I had a trainer who was hyper alpha and kind of intimidated people off of machines, and when I've been alone guys have attempted that with me. This time was a totally different experience , guys were actually being polite, almost humble. Only one data point though so can't say this is the status quo now because of DMSI.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
