05-09-2017, 08:29 AM
I seem to have crossed the threshold. Throughout the last week, the clearing was destroying me, and I wanted to run from it so bad. I feel at ease now, more balanced. I hit the apex last night when I humbled myself in front of 30 people, and admitted I'm failing at managing a certain aspect of my life. I am one who ALWAYS talk about solutions. Even when there's a problem, I talk about the positive sides of it. But last night I put my pride and ego to the side, and shared two sentences about how I'm fuqqing something up, and then shut up. Immediately after saying that, I felt a huge wave of humility-warmth encompassing me. From that moment on, I am significantly less "depressed".
If I were to guess what cleared, I'd say it was something along the lines of protecting my image.
"What I want you to think about me". My intuition is kicking into overdrive and I'm connecting different aspects of my subconscious into a coherent pattern, identifying a whole host of interconnected beliefs that can serve to cause physical ailments in my body if left unchecked.... the only problem is I'm having trouble verbalizing the pattern, so I'll have to just leave it at that.
Damn. If I'm just now starting to get over limiting beliefs on my MHS run, maybe I should stay on MHS longer..
If I were to guess what cleared, I'd say it was something along the lines of protecting my image.
"What I want you to think about me". My intuition is kicking into overdrive and I'm connecting different aspects of my subconscious into a coherent pattern, identifying a whole host of interconnected beliefs that can serve to cause physical ailments in my body if left unchecked.... the only problem is I'm having trouble verbalizing the pattern, so I'll have to just leave it at that.
Damn. If I'm just now starting to get over limiting beliefs on my MHS run, maybe I should stay on MHS longer..
