05-05-2017, 07:14 AM
Day 64
The hammer has fallen. My ex wrote to me today.
It came to me as no surprise. I expected it to happen in a long while and if anything I expected it much sooner. If you follow my journal you know it's not small matter for me. Thankfully I came prepared after couple of months of DMSI!
Don't wanna recap conversation or anything like that but few points are clear. First, while I'm not over her yet I can say "no" to her and I have no intention of ever being with her again. Second I mostly dealt with my negative emotions towards her and while going through the trash again is not pleasant it didn't bring me don't. If anything I feel happy and in closure now. Lastly I will try to stay in contact with her for some time just to see how much progress I made. I want to make sure what happened today is not one shot but a pattern.
And you know what the funniest thing is? Yesterday I was talking about her with my female friend (one of DMSI manifestations) and I was talking about how I'm losing anxiety for things I associate wit her and how I'm letting go of her. And I was right
Will keep you posted on that front, what may come out of this will either proof strength of DMSI's healing or prove me weak, lovesick child. Wish me good luck!
The hammer has fallen. My ex wrote to me today.
It came to me as no surprise. I expected it to happen in a long while and if anything I expected it much sooner. If you follow my journal you know it's not small matter for me. Thankfully I came prepared after couple of months of DMSI!
Don't wanna recap conversation or anything like that but few points are clear. First, while I'm not over her yet I can say "no" to her and I have no intention of ever being with her again. Second I mostly dealt with my negative emotions towards her and while going through the trash again is not pleasant it didn't bring me don't. If anything I feel happy and in closure now. Lastly I will try to stay in contact with her for some time just to see how much progress I made. I want to make sure what happened today is not one shot but a pattern.
And you know what the funniest thing is? Yesterday I was talking about her with my female friend (one of DMSI manifestations) and I was talking about how I'm losing anxiety for things I associate wit her and how I'm letting go of her. And I was right
Will keep you posted on that front, what may come out of this will either proof strength of DMSI's healing or prove me weak, lovesick child. Wish me good luck!
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
