(05-03-2017, 06:15 PM)Shannon Wrote:(05-03-2017, 03:52 PM)CatMan Wrote:(05-03-2017, 01:03 PM)Shannon Wrote:(05-03-2017, 06:39 AM)Samba99 Wrote: shannon How do you know exactly that you projecting? I mean what does it feel like?
It feels to me a little like a cross between standing in full summer sunlight without sunblock on, and facing a furnace. It's like that reception of radiant heat feeling.
This is interesting to me.
I sometime get random VERY strong bursts of heat, both in my torso/chest/stomach area, and especially in my head most often. And accurate descriptions from you as well that's how it feels like to me, from no discernible origin outside me like the environment, temperature etc. It doesn't seem to be controlled, it seems to be random and unpredictable. Sometimes it stays an hour or longer even. I get headaches as a result of the heat too sometimes and have to take Advil Extra Strength, two pills just to take the edge off. It's rare for me to get headaches, and ultra rare for ones to be so strong to do that. I don't know if the headaches are directly related to the heat which is possible as I get that happen to me without DMSI even. Or, if they are from resisting the script as that can be a side effect well documented now by many. Or, both.
I'm getting it right now while listening to today's loops. But it doesn't always happen during loops, sometimes without listening too I think. Feels like it's 40 degrees C, which is crazy as it's NOWHERE near that here. Even the air feels hot around my body and breath feels hot too, this is what it feels like to me. Sounds similar to your experience.
Sounds like maybe it's the same thing? So, if this is the "aura", does that mean if I'm not hot, the aura isn't working, Shannon? Or, is the heat just the aura inadvertently, temporarily, breaking through some sort of barrier or shield between us and it to keep us from sweating like crazy and getting pounding headaches, always? Lol.
Another strange thing I get more often...is that feeling of falling for a half or tenth of a second. This happens often. I don't really know how else to describe it. The most accurate description is, feeling like I'm falling, but for just a tiny tenth or half of a second. Then it goes away, but it happens more often than the heat sensations.
Also, I woke up this morning thinking of a girl that dated an ex friend of mine that turned out to be a total scumbag. I cut him off, she contacted me months later, saying they broke up. I always thought she was cute, but he was my friend so I'd never make a move EVER. She contacted me months after we both cut him off, her and I hung out a few times. Maybe she got frustrated by my lack of moving forward, and moved on to another guy soon after and started dating him. I was half freaked out with her and beside myself that I was actually spending time with her and was attracted and becoming moreso over time. And also I was half still somewhat tied to misplaced loyalty to that guy and needed some more time to reframe her as a sexual being and available to me. Anyway, opportunity lost, she lost patience far quicker than I could reframe and gear up to her. I've thought about her a bit a few times since, but that was like 15 years ago or so. I think she's married with two kids now, unfortunately. Her suddenly popping up this hard this morning to me, it's pretty obvious what caused her to surface...
Anyway, there's some more info I'm reporting on my experience due to your post, Shannon.
Almost certainly what you are experiencing is resistance headaches and that is definitely projection of the aura. There appear to be multiple types of energy being projected, since when the heat is not present, I still get results. Welcome to the world of auras, my friend. Took your damned tome showing up, didn't cha? lol
The falling sensation, I can only speculate on. I think it may be a subconscious fear response, your subconscious trying to express that it is losing control when trying to resist the program and this is scary for you.
And that girl sounds like either LDS or manifestation...
Haha, indeed.
To be honest, I've felt those in earlier versions, I can't remember when it first came but WAY back in versions for sure. But I didn't know what the deal was. Now I know! Oh...by the way...last couple minutes it came back again, now it's in my legs and feet mostly. I never knew what the deal with it was before your post, so I don't believe I mentioned it, I'm not sure.
I hear you, I figured it was some kind of fear response. Good to hear, means something is being dealt with anyway.
Those were just thoughts of her, mind you. I haven't seen her in person in 15 years. I figured it was clearing and healing around my feelings about her and myself, pain from what happened, and how I acted, or rather, DIDN'T act due to fear or something etc.?
I have an idea of who the LDS could be. One of 3 girls. One, is the one that left my life (again) possibly for good due to a blowout we had about her being dishonest and me feeling used and lied to, during E2. Second, is the one I know that came back to town recently and has a kid, which I don't want to play daddy to but she is EXTREMELY attractive. Third, is a girl I knew going to school for dentistry but haven't talked in person with for like a year and a half. All extremely attractive to me, so I figure it'd be one of those 3 off the top of my head. It COULD be T, she is most accessible of them all, and massively hot to me, but she's been acting so strange towards me for so long, it's tough for me to know what's going on in her head. T's friend S, I knew in person for awhile, she was incredibly hot and I was really into her, she could be it, she's hot enough. Who knows, it could be a random for all I know, or one of the other girls I've liked, but those are the most likely candidates, that isn't to say I haven't thought others were extremely attractive, well above others, either. I still don't understand how exactly the LDS works in reality, can't wrap my head around all that in the real world. For me, it'd probably need to be seen to be believed. I'm not sure how my mind "scores" this, is it just what I consciously believe is the most sexually and reproductively attractive female I've ever encountered, or is it subconsciously based? I tend to worry how my subconscious scores this and how the two differ, if they do.
I must admit, I'm very disappointed to hear V3.2 will now take 2-2.5 EXTRA months to come out, when V3.1 is already out 2 months...I know you need to make money and respect that, but we've also paid already for the sub. It can feel frustrating being somewhat back burnered after paying when not getting the full power of the sub, you know? So I have mixed feelings about it all. This MLS focus already set it back weeks, now this P6 which everyone now wants in MLS, setting it back further weeks, then the custom job for a month, then B13 to develop P6 to get it ready for MLS and then V3.2...yeah...hmm...Seems like this summer may be a writeoff since V3.2 will be so late to the party. Very disappointing as it seemed before all of that, that V3.2 would probably be out in May sometime, to fall in line with V3.0.1's timeline. Which was longer than normal due to other stuff, I remember. I really do miss those 30 day updates, things moved so much faster.
Anyway, with these posts, and the one I made earlier with my bullet points of my personal choke points, I hope you have some good info and it was all helpful somehow. I'm positive I could do very well with this program if those were all implemented. I could have a vastly different journal that's for sure!

Regardless, congrats on the custom job coming through. I hope you make a lot off it! Congrats also on B13 possibly being able to hit design goal, 6G should be very close then after that if it's successful. One day I'd like to hear what the design goal for Beast is, long after 6G is done, of course, just for curiosity sake. I love the backstory about the mentor etc. and telling you it's impossible, lol. Great setup!

EDIT: Hello Sarge and Broski!
Well then, I'm glad Shannon posted, which prompted ME to post. Now we have all realised we are getting these reactions together due to the sub. That's great to have the realisations

We're all gonna make it, brahs!