05-02-2017, 01:42 PM
Took my kid to the Children's Museum today. It was his birthday yesterday, and when we showed up, it was closed, so I owed him one. It worked out better for him, he got to go to the zoo yesterday (instead) and now the museum today.
Worked out better for me, too. Wife had to work today, so nothin' but moms and kids in the museum - and me. Even the CM staff were young females.
It was an interesting time. At first, I found myself looking for external results. Then, I found myself feeling anxious and overwhelmed. From there, I tried focusing on IDGAF, I'm here to have fun with my son, and I felt better. It was like letting go, and I even associated it with an almost helpless feeling. As that happened, I suddenly found myself surrounded by different women, all looking at me like a piece of meat. No moves made, just...ravenous looks. And then a strange, young staff member came and started to interact with my son and me. At first, I wasn't sure if I thought she was cute. Then, she grew on me (in a Luna Lovegood sorta fashion, lol). Lots of smiles, but nothing beyond friendliness. I didn't see her talking to anyone else, though - nor anyone else's children.
After that, I was suddenly and utterly exhausted. I started feeling really...odd. Almost dizzy. That dissipated a few minutes later, and after that, I felt like I could nap anywhere. Then the headache came on. So, we left and got lunch. Headache disappeared, and I'm not quite tired enough to sleep. Listening to today's loops now.
If people want to have a good go with healing/clearing and figuring out where they're at with DMSI, find a place where it's you, women, and no competition. I need to do this more often.
Worked out better for me, too. Wife had to work today, so nothin' but moms and kids in the museum - and me. Even the CM staff were young females.
It was an interesting time. At first, I found myself looking for external results. Then, I found myself feeling anxious and overwhelmed. From there, I tried focusing on IDGAF, I'm here to have fun with my son, and I felt better. It was like letting go, and I even associated it with an almost helpless feeling. As that happened, I suddenly found myself surrounded by different women, all looking at me like a piece of meat. No moves made, just...ravenous looks. And then a strange, young staff member came and started to interact with my son and me. At first, I wasn't sure if I thought she was cute. Then, she grew on me (in a Luna Lovegood sorta fashion, lol). Lots of smiles, but nothing beyond friendliness. I didn't see her talking to anyone else, though - nor anyone else's children.
After that, I was suddenly and utterly exhausted. I started feeling really...odd. Almost dizzy. That dissipated a few minutes later, and after that, I felt like I could nap anywhere. Then the headache came on. So, we left and got lunch. Headache disappeared, and I'm not quite tired enough to sleep. Listening to today's loops now.
If people want to have a good go with healing/clearing and figuring out where they're at with DMSI, find a place where it's you, women, and no competition. I need to do this more often.
